ClarissaZ

Goodbye 2008!

2009-01-08T00:26:00.002+08:00

Hey! I didn't manage to tell you guys about my flight back to Indonesia. Anyway, I did and it was a goodbye to 2008!
And welcome 2009! :D
Though it may be sad, it's the beginning of happiness too!
Let's have a great year!

Go to CCA in 2009

Ciao! <3

Gone For Me, New For Caroline Roberts!

2008-11-11T02:54:00.002+08:00

Hihi! It's been long! My mum came here for couples of days. She just went back hours ago. Let's rewind and look back on the days :)

3rd November

Went to the airport to receive the artistes. Been 2 years! Well yeah, usually they come every two years anyway. XD So, I was with Phyone first. We went to Square2 (didn't know where the hell this place is at first), figured our way there, got my beautiful posters and we had our dinner together too! ^^ We ate at a Korean restaurant! :)

There was this funny incident when the waiter kept talking to me in Korean, and I could not help but to reply him in Korean too. Of course, it was not on purpose. The words just came out of my mouth automatically! Then, I realised and I was embarrassed, kinda. x.x

It was fun catching up with her about the things that we have missed out on. So yeah, that was the reason why we were late. On other occassions, I may be quite cranky but this time, it was all worthwhile ^^

Anyway, we got to the airport before they arrived. However, DOZENS of fans (girls AND boys) were already crowding the area. I couldn't get to my friends and was standing at the opposite side of the barricades.

When I realised that all the Changjos were on the other side, I started wondering whose side was I on? I mean, I saw all Andy, JunJin, VOS, 2PM and ShinHwa fans on the other side. I also realised that there were LOADS of guys on my side. True enough, minutes later, super huge signs of WONDER GIRLS went up! O_O gosshh!!

I was sooo frantic! Cause there were reporters and camerman around! They were capturing the Changjos and Wondergirls' fans! Having the posters in my hand, I quickly unrolled JunJin's and started shouting "JUNJIN!!!!" Haha! I was like a lost JJ fan trying to fight for my rights! XD

YEP!! The cameraman saw me! Just then, my friend texted me and it read "JunJin's flight is at 1AM!" O_O Whhaaatt?? I quickly rolled JJ's poster and switched it with Andy's! Haha! And I started shouting Andy although I was there for JunJin! XD

Also, I received a text from my friend not long later saying "Wonder girls are arriving tomorrow." This surprised me a lot! I mean, all the wonder girls' fans were practically screaming for no reason then! Cause their artistes were not even gonna walk through that door!! HAH!

Then Phyone had to go home and I waited till about 3AM plus. We did lots of crazy things together while waiting for JunJin. :) Can never forget the dances! XD

4th November

It was the concert day. Totally awesome! The U-Kiss crew waved to Appa and I :) Awesome! BUT I didn't feel that connection with JunJin this time around. :( Is it because of the bad timing or is it just not there anymore? Sigh.

Phyone and Yue Ning were sitting together. Found out that Siska went for the concert too! ^^ Whoo! Bina and ce Beatrice also went! ^^ Awesome!! :)

5th November

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MONJI KUDA-OPPA!!!
:) Be prettier, be fatter and happier!
Quickly find a job so that you can pamper me more and love me forever more! ^^ <3

My mother came on this day, the day that I was supposed to go to the airport to send JunJin too. Sighs, the bonding seems to be really gone. It's time to come to reality now :) Thought we were that close. Not anymore, eyh?

Oh yes, and bro just had to break it to me that he met Oline -___- trying to make me jealous!! GAAAHH!!! :( BOOOOOOO

7th November

We had a BBQ party! :D Yeyy!! Oh, heard of TGIF before? Yeah, sure. TGIF!! However, for that week alone, it became ONIF! Peng bro catch fast XD Hahas! Oh No, It's Friday! Firstly, we had to choose between the BBQ or cell group. I got Caroline to come with me. It wasn't all so bad till things happen. She slipped into the pool, spoiling her precious handphone. As for me, well, shits just happen. 'Nuff said!

Oh! Bernard darling and Co went for it :) Sad, I didn't go!

8th November

Joined Oline for service. I was never allowed to go for Chistian activities. I know, I understand. I'll just go this time around, again, because I've made a promise. Promises are to be kept till the very last straw when you really can keep it no more.

Glad to say that I won one bet. However, she won the other bet. Verdict: No treatings needed -_- Hey! I really want her to do it, you know! Will make my life lighter! ^^ Yeah, I finally understand how you feel XD Okay, not really a hundred percent :P

9th November

I've been out of my house the past few days and so I decided that I should stay at home. Yep! I said it, I made a promise to myself and I proudly did it! Told ya so! When I mean it, I do it! I'm sorry if I reject any invitations too, though. I just need to stop myself from going overboard.

10th November

So, I was actually planning to stay at home the whole day, again. Guess it didn't work out because of a call. A stupid call!

Caroline was on the other line. She was telling me about a birthday surprise that the cell group was having for this birthday girl. They held it at West Coast, which apparently, is not very far from my house. Although sadly, I do not know the way there.

At first, I rejected, but she got China to go on the phone and they both talked me into going. On the way there, I felt rather bothered because I had the bad vibes that I'll lose my way somehow!

True enough, I did. Well, not lost my way, but I missed my bus-stop. The whole event was pretty fun. Those crazy guys! Oh, did I mention that I was greeted with an ugly sight? Yeah. This guy called Daniel had fallen into the water and he sprained his ankle pretty badly. Wayne had to drive him off. Talk about greetings!

Had pizza and the cake. We surprised her by lining up in two rows with sparkles in our hands. She was pretty happy but you could see from her face that she pretty much expected those already. Awww~ :(

Played balloons for the rest of the time ^^

OH YEAH!! I DON'T THINK i MENTIONED THIS BEFORE, BUT i SHOULD!! I have to! I FINALLY WATCHED THE VIDEO WHERE CAROLINE AND I WERE PLAYING THE STUPID APPLE GAME. IT WAS horrendous!I SWEAR! SHE WAS PRACTICALLY screaming HER headoff! I am not joking! She was MAD!! O_O Yeah..

So, Line, if the guy that you like actually ran away from you, I wouldn't blame him that much XD haha~! Joking

Ok deh, rasanya skg gw udah gak bakalan demen ama KW sama skali! And hmm.. Dia ama Jen juga kyknya udah rada gak mungkin =/ Well, his feelings for her will still be there. But about her towards him.. Rada menurun ;;
About Line, sebenarnya rada rendah jg.. Y_Y

-I am desperately trying to help CAROLINE ROBERTS!-

K-pop Concert Tickets

2008-11-02T03:05:00.003+08:00

Hihi!! :) Updaaattee!! Woo hoo!

So, today I brought Bernard darling, Dom, Shawn and Jian Wen to meet E406 XD Yeah sure, I'm not really that much of a church go-er but hey, why not, right? :)

It was pretty tough though, just now, cause I had three groups of friends mixed together XD Well, yeah. Now I do understand why people said that it was not really a great idea to join your group of friends together =/

Anyway, at first, I was pretty afraid that Bernard & co. will feel left out or uncomfortable as, knowing them, they won't talk to people unless approached first. Thank God, Wayne & co. were super chatty and chatted with them the whole time ^^ Phew! Haha! :)

Glad you guys were alright with it ^^ And yes, please, do not go there for *ehem* -____-

Next up! Happy news too! :D Seems like I've secured myself a pair of tickets! ^^ Woo hoo!! However, the tickets are still not mine yet at the moment *sweats* I am pretty disappointed too because of the fact that I actually found extra pairs for my friend at cheaper and reasonable prices and even confirmed with the seller about buying them. I sounded so sure but I was wrong.

Yeah, turned out that my friend actually went hunting herself during that time =/ So yeah, she pretty much found her own pairs and cancelled the offers that I found. x.x Feeling really really bad right now! Arrgghh!! I know how it feels to be the seller that got cancelled on!! GAAHH!!

Anyway, in compensation, I shall blog this up. People, if you're looking for tickets please tell me! Do contact me through my e-mail. State that it's regarding the K-pop tickets :) Thank you!! ^^ Haha! I'm not joking by the way, if you're really in need of the tickets, do e-mail me :) I'll be more than glad to help! Here are the infos:

Time: 4 November 2008
Venue: Singapore Indoor Stadium
Tickets availability:
Email me or hunt for them. They're not sold through any agents as usual.I also suggest you go to Coolsmurf Domain (you can see my other email at comment #430 too)
Artistes performing:
Wonder Girls, Chae Yeon, Andy, Jun Jin, V.O.S, Jewelry, U-Kiss, 2PM and Kim Jong Wook

Awesome! Awesome! Anyway, gotta sleep now! ^^ Good night everyone~~! :)

-"Cause I miss you, baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing."-

Halloween '08

2008-11-01T02:44:00.003+08:00

Hey hey! Happy Halloween everyone! Had fun? Well, went to the party. Was really last minute but I went being emo-gothic. Glad it worked out! ^^ Sure, my make-up was smudged after some time but it was alright, it was alright. However, I do look unexpectedly ugly in some pictures x.x sheit! Haha! :D

Peng became a witch, who was said to have hair like noodles XD,
Wayne became.. WILLY WONKA!! :D WHEEE SWEEETT!! CHOCCCCSS!! KEKEKEKE,
Kiat Guan and Lionel wore a ghost mask each,
Chris became L-desu!! XDXD haha!! Hai hai~ It's the L up there XD
Shi Min had bloody face, bloody shirt and she lost her baby. COOL!
So yeah, there were some that became pirates, japanese school girls, belly dancer, batman, etc etc.

Caroline became a Japanese school girl too. Our initial plan was for her to be a raped school girl while me an emo-goth who commited suicide. So yeah, her raped word was cancelled and my commited suicide was cancelled too XD sad.

Anyway, went with a 3 inches heels today. It was pretty fine actually. Then, we started running, dancing and my leg hurt T_T God! Finally I understood what girls meant when they said that their feet hurt T___T but it's alright.. Good experience for the future!! ^^ Whoo hoo!! Heheheh

Did my hair too. It was nice at first but yeah, it flatened again because Carol was pulling on my hair thanks to the apple game -_- bloody.lame. Why did you have to do that?? GAAHH!! Rough woman!!

By the way, did I mention that I made Mandy wait for me outside the YMCA building for VERY long? Yes, I did! Felt DAMN BAD!! X_X She didn't actually go in first.. HUIKZZ!!

Oh yes, and why the late-ness and rush? Haha! Well, Cause umm.. I had to find things and I was figuring out where my handphone and wallet went to. Was also thinking on the shoes that I should wear (before deciding on the 3 inches heels.)

Went to accompany Kinny too. He needed to buy a present for his mom. It's her birthday.. Today! Haha! :D Awesome!! ^^ We wen to Plaza Singapura for it. Yes, it's goddam far and I was kinda disappointed, actually. I was hoping that we'll meet *ehem* but we didn't anyways. So yeah, sorry Kinny! X.X

But no worries! All in all, today was fun! :) I celebrated Mimi's birthday before going for the party too! ^^ Whee~~ Very happy now! :D YEY!!!

HAPPY BIRHTDAY MIMI!!!!
Hehe! Hope you had a fun day! And I'm so sorry that I couldn't spend the day with you X(
Hope all your wishes come true too! :D

Alright, let's get down to business now.

Hey, young lady! I don't know what's going on with your head, with your mind, or with yourself. You did not tell a single thing.
Now you hurt yourself, why did you? What's the point? We've talked about this many many times before.
You've moved on! Don't let yourself fall back to that old you!
I don't give a shit if you wanna smoke or drink or club. Do whatever you like but don't do stupid things like that!
You know very well how I look at that thing. You know very well about how much I hate them.
Yeah sure, I may not be with you for 24/7, but it's the trust and faith.

Yes you have problems, I do too.
Yea, sure, you have woes.
But who doesn't?
We gotta fight them together.

Anyway, here's a song I'm dedicating to you. Listen!

Finally - Fergie

-"Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day"-

2008-10-30T00:50:00.003+08:00

Alright, I've not been updating for so long. I've gotten back my report book. Good news: I'm proudly promoted :) Bad news: Well, I did very badly overall. Definitely capable of doing better.

So, our school ended and Mrs Yeo is going to leave us. We had a concert for her, didn't seat through it. I wanted to, though. Sadly, didn't. Heard that it was kinda lame from some and others said that it was not bad. Whatever it is, at least I have a rough idea on what happened. :)

Met the casts backstage and yes, that's because I was a backstage crew too. Bad bad day, I tell ya. Was screamed at like nobody's business, treated like a dog and bad-mouthed. All done right in front of my damn bloody face.

Anyhow, It doesn't matter no more. The past is the past :) And I abide by all those just because of the sad fact that I am still a student, a kid and that my results and everything else is controlled by others.

Let's see.. 10 days have passed and dozens of things has happened. Can't re-tell all one-by-one, though. The O level kids are still in the midst of their war. There's still two more weeks to go!! Fighting!!! You're half-way through!!!

And yes, I've not been hanging with Joel & co. for super duper long, have not been with Caroline, 5Ns & co. for almost a month. Really damn long. What happened? Before I knew it, I've become a social butterfly again -____- sighs.

Currently, I'm still hunting for the K-POP CONCERT TICKETS. Hopefully I'll be able to go, ohmigosh..

Hmm.. And it's been very long since I last talked to Mr Lim too! Haha! :D Still as crazy as ever! Still kiddish! XD Wanted to meet during Deepavali but ended up not meeting up :( And it was a rainy Deepavali, gosh. What's more, Izzati couldn't make it anyways =/ So, what happened to poor Cindy? She stayed at home and gambled XD LOL!! Joking~

Was really at home and I played Mahjong and poker XD HAHA! Did super badly for the first day but everything changes on the second day! :D Wheeee!! Beginners just need some training and you'll be SUPER shocked at what we have in store! :D

And coming up, it's Halloween! How are you guys preparing?? Are you guys gonna celebrate it?? I've always wanted to celebrate Halloween. So I thought this year I would too. Surprisingly, I am rather adamant about it right now.. For some reason.

Then, Caroline invited me to a party that she's gonna have with the guys. I agreed to go. Thing is, everyone has to dress up. Wondering what I'm gonna be. I sort of have an idea already. Wonder if it'll work. And am glad that I spent my day yesterday with Carol :)

Speaking of which, I also spent a day with Din just a few days ago XD long timeeeeeeeee!! Bought lots of things. Not me, her. Stupidly, we kept reminding each other to take a picture and I even brought my camera along with me, but guess what? We forgot! -_____- So yeah.. No pictures for that day! :( Sad! Well, there are some pictures.. Of manikins and brands, that is.

Last words:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWEK BEST FRIEND!!!
Hope your wishes come true. Of course, you'll be understood one day. :)

-"One must be a wise reader to quote wisely and well."-
Ambrose Bierce

Lazy For School

2008-10-20T02:09:00.003+08:00

Golly, I am lazy to go to school. Seriously, although we supposedly have lessons. I mean, our exams are just over and yet we still have lessons to prepare ourselves for the war next year. How bothersome! Soldiers need rest after a battle!

Well, complaining is not gonna do any good anyway. Plus, it ain't as if my results were amazing. Oh well, Monij has been away with Kenji all the way in Malaysia. Was alone again the past few days.

Pretty much alright, except for the fact that some unexpected things happened. Not to me, but to one of the close people to me. It was something intolerable, over-rated, over-blown. I am not a sexist or a girly girl.

In fact, I have been around boys my entire life. I have been a down-right tomboy with no affection towards guys in the ways girls normally do. There was never a time when I thought of getting away from guys because I'm oh-so-afraid of the opposite gender or wish to be together with any, cause I have been like a guy myself.

Point is, although I have been a tomboy, I do realise that I am a girl and that nothing will ever be changed, nor do I want to change it. I realise that some of the things that guys are deeply in love with are just so over-rated for me. I also realise that I can never understand the way some males think. The way they do the things they do, the way they want things. They are just unreasonable.

All and all, females will always be hurt at the end of the day. Why must it be so? Well, sometimes, I do feel that I should have the ability to change my gender in order to save the women clan. Seriously, I feel hopeless sometimes. Hopeless that I am unable to do anything, no matter how much I want. No matter how much I wish I could.

Actually, changing my gender may not be much of a help too. It may make me feel even worse, too. I just wish that I have the power to do something. Do something for one so dear to me. For anyone I place close to my heart.

Of course, if you truly mean it, things don't have to be shown obviously in actions. Your thoughts and feelings should be able to penetrate your bones and skins and the physical distance. That is what I am trying to do right now. Trying to with my very best. I do not know if anyone will ever understand this. It was something really unacceptable.

I am happy with my life right now because although not many people undestand me, at least some are able to understand some parts. And thus, although divided by many, bits and pieces of me are sewed together when these people come together.

The same thing goes to this friend of mine, I pressume. Although I may not be 100% correct, but being with her for a long time, I am positive that it is at least 95% true. Alas, a piece of her is gone. Gone with the passing time, unrewindable.

It was a piece placed onto me, only much later. When everything was too late. First thing that came to my mind was to scold her. But again, nothing's gonna change and it'll only make things worse. I want things to get better. At least for the feelings to be better. I hope it will be healed.

I never imagined that such a day will ever come. I always knew that she was strong, that she would never make any wrong decisions. Although, of course, she had, she will definitely correct her mistakes, you know.

In this case, things aren't so simple no more. As much as it seems simple, deep in her she is not the same. There's a cut. No matter how thin and tiny. No matter how fine and barely visible it may be. It hurts me to see.

Anyway, I'm so lazy!!! Sigh, hope tomorrow will be a fine day! And ALL THE BEST TO ALL O LEVEL STUDENTS!! Tomorrow is the start of their battle! :) I'm nervous for them! ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYONE!!!!!!!!!
Do get a boyfriend soon :P But NEVER forget me! XP I'll kill you IF you EVER do!

Alfreda, get well... Love you! Please be okay.
-You'll be surprised at how near your fears are.-

Bitter-Sweet and Strange

2008-10-15T22:17:00.003+08:00

Monday

Probably one of the saddest and happiest days in my Sec 3 school life. Guess what? It's the last day that I'll be going to school with Kinny, Jen and Tiffanto! Really really saddening. Though my exams are over, something is really missing. They're away for their war. For a war that I know not of, a war where I'm not there. Not yet, anyway.

Then again, I can meet them elsewhere outside school. However, being me, the single soul, next year will be so sad! Of course, I still have Mir, no doubt :) And ya.. There's Dinika too.. And Joel and more. I suppose it's just that I'll miss them. Really really much :]

Okay, and it is also one of the happiest at the same time because I scored pretty well for my English! ^^ Truly, I believe that I had aced it in the past. However, things changed. My English detoriate a lot! Thus, I was greatly and pleasantly surprised when I passed it with flying colours! Yes, of course, I didn't get A1 but A2 is DEFINITELY awesome! ^^

So yeah.. Happy and sad at the same time. Not only that. When I was about to eat my lunch, Wilona passed me a note. It was really a bitter-sweet note, or rather, letter. It really did caught me off-guard.

At that point of time, I really felt like crying. I did not know what to say to myself. The feeling that I had was.. Who am I? As in, who am I to deserve this? Who am I to deserve to be cherished so much. Who am I to deserve that unconditional care and concern? I was really deeply ashamed at myself. I am not one of those populer Queenkas, I am not all that talented, nor am I all that smart. I hardly ever did anything!

Yet, there are times when I feel lonely and down. To think about it, I am really lucky and fortunate. To have what I have, to live a life with little hardship and to know that there is someone out there for me.

Definitely, this became a reflection to me. A fact that I shall remember forever.

Anyways, I am currently HUNTING for the K CONCERT!! Wo0tz! Well, guess what? I actually found out that we could redeem tickets at Novena Square, or Square2. Sadly, I was out of school only at 3+PM and the tickets were given out from 11AM. What made it worse was the fact that people actually started queueing up as early as 7AM! GOSH! That's the time when I was still on my way to SCHOOL! O_O Hallelujah!

Hope I can get a ticket too!! X.X Umm.. Finna Appa, Phyone, Ardisa and Siska wanna go too! :D Oh, Michelley and Li Qing have gotten themselves a ticket each! ^^ Whee!! Can't wait!! *goes hunting* hee! :D

To Kinny: Heys.. Don't let anything bother you too much ya.. You can do it! :D And, good luck! For everything.. Be it in exams or things that do not concern school. :) Do your best! It's your last shot!

To ALL O level students: Hey!! GUYS, im gonna miss ALL of you really very very much! I swear! I'll never forget you guys, EVER! I really wish that you guys will be by my side during my last year in school. However, I can't be selfish. Plus, I do not want you guys to be in this school in that school uniform everyday! So, yeah, I sincerely wish that ALL of you will graduate! :)
But do promise me one thing please.. Don't forget me! Ya? :) Love you guys!! Hearts!

Iya.. Surat itu dari Kin Mun. Sumpah, gw mrasa gak enak.. But it truly was very sweet and touching... Even Jenny and the others felt so too. The only thing that I can do right now, is to at the very least, reply his message.
Smoga Kinny bisa mendapatkannya! :)

-"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched... but are felt in the heart."-
Helen Keller

Hope For Next Year

2008-10-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

Well! :) Hey, it's me again. Results were out on Friday. Practically hugged Kinny's Jacket throughout. Bloody nervous. Thanks Kin, indirectly ^^ Okay, fine, I sort of forced him into lending me his jacket XD Taha! Don't blame me~~ Gotta find some comfort.. Somehow!

It didn't well that bad. My essay was accepted! :) Awesome! The remarks were something like "Interesting story", "Good command of language" and "well done!" Pretty happy about it! Then, I received my letter writing. Screwed that one up! And then I passed for my comprehension and scored a beautiful 21 for summary! :D TOTALLY awesome! I usually suck at it! I swear.

Then I received my Sciences. Scored 62% for both! :) Great! Although, I'm quite disappointed cause I had hoped that I would score a lil higher for Chemistry. Jen really took GREAT effort to teach me! Disappointed her, really. But I am really glad cause I would usually fail for both, and I passed this time round! :D Awesomeness!

So, for my school, we had the criteria of passing our English and 2 other subjects in order to proceed to the next level. My next hope was humanities. I can tell you for sure that I'm not gonna do that well for SS. But hell, I failed all my other subjects! What's more, Sciences and Humanities were the only subjects that I passed during my other major examinations too! So yeah.. Well, I passed my Geography already.. Still waiting for the SS results. Dag Dig Dug Dag Dig Dug!

Ouh.. And by the way, we haven't gotten our English results! So the possibility of me passing right now is still about 80% I have to say :D Yep! Pretty confident! ^^ But NOT complacent!

Hmm.. Bernard and Shawn are really down.. Guys! Don't be.. Okay? Really really. There's still hope! Believe in that! :) I believe!

After school that day, went to have lunch with Mir, Quan and Leslie. Will really miss Quan and Leslie after they've graduated :( No.. I'll miss the whole cohort! Or my friends at the very least. Will really really really miss them so much! It's like.. I hope they'll stay for another year, but on the other hand, I don't want any of them to fail at all! I don't want them to be back in that ugly uniform... Sighs. Just hope that they'll come back after they've graduated.. =]

And after that, met Caroline, Harvest, Alfreda and her friend - Cynthia. Thankfully, Alfreda and I are good now. It's been so long since I went out with Harvest. And oh it was such a random day. Caroline went for a hair cut. Brought her to Alika. Turned out that she had to straighten her hair. Took her more than an hour! In the mean time, we were supposed to catch Eagle Eye which was pratically playing while we were at the salon! Haha! Funny! So we rushed to the cinema after she was done. We were left with only about the last half an hour of the movie XD GAGA!

And AAHHHHHHHH!! *SQUEALS*!! Guess WHO I MET?! Edward, double Henry and Zheng Jie!!! XD KIAAAAA!!! MISS THEM SOOOO SO SO VERY MUCCHH!! :D :D :D! HAHA

As for yesterday, I met Ardisa for lunch. Kinny and Caroline joined too :D We talked and talked. Long time since the last time we chatted. Missed it :) a lot! And then I went home to do chores.

Sadly, my happiness did not last for very long. I had to face the sad fact of my family. Just when I thought that I could finally put my mind to rest.. Things just happens! You see.. I am never in peace for long. It's like life is a drama!

Well, I went to the Esplanade with Phyone last night. There was a performance by the NAFA. Kinda cool.. But it's modern dance. Most of it being contemporary and I don't really understand contemporary. Well, I do understand the story behind each act.. I just don't understand the dance itself.

Ate at Thai Express after that. Phyone and I wanted to catch a movie but changed our minds because 1) there's not really any nice movies to catch and 2) the nice ones start really late. Ended up chilling at Hip Diners USA.

Guess what? The 2 of us had the same dream. To be an artiste! XD Haha! That's at the top of our lists but of course, we're not allowed to pursuit them. So, we're going to go for the one next on the list! :)

And it comes to today.. I stayed home the whole day.. Well, I don't know how long more my mask will stay put on my face. It's getting colder and colder.. I have to admit, sometimes, I am just.. Lost. Just lost. Lost in that dark cold cave.. I need to see the light. Well yeah, last night I received light. It was really warm and then I had to face the cold again. I've really been stuck in this coldness for long man! It's not really much of a "lost" case actually. I'm more.. Frozen. Each time I thought the ice have melted, I realise that maybe.. Just maybe, what have melted is the surface not the core. And so the melted just freeze up again and melts and freeze.. And yeah..

Somebody save me.

Knapa yah.. Kadang gini. Guess it's just life.. And also probably why I have my split personality. Kadang gw mrasa dingin.. Kyk there's nobody there for me.. Kmaren thank god bgt gw kluar ama Phyone.. And thank you to Jenny :) But I don't know.. Why is my whole being so complicated?

-"It is easier to be wise for others than for ourselves."-
Francois De La Rochefoucauld
I can never agree with you more.

The Script-checking Day

2008-10-09T21:43:00.003+08:00

Ouuhhhh I'm so nervous nowww x.x so nervous to the point that my eyes are tired already! And it's only 9.44PM! Well, or maybe it's because of the fact that I watched too much, actually XD

Hahas! Anyways, tomorrow is the script checking day.. And i am afraid that I'll fail all of them. Of course, deep in my heart, I know of friends who really have total believe in me. However, I can't seem to have the same amount of believe as them :(

Oh, good news! My computer is up and running again! ^^ Bad news: My parents just flew off today. This afternoon.. And my uncle and grandpa just flew from Indonesia yesterday. I think I forgot to mention that in the previous post.

Caroline's having her Bio paper tomorrow and she sounds really really REALLY nervous. Hahas! no worries sista! ^^ You can do it! :D

Okay, I think I should go now! Although I'm rather reluctant actually x.x Nights!!

Oh oh! And Isnu!! ALL THE BEST FOR YOU EXAMINATIONS TOO! :D HEHE!

Knp ya.. Feelingnya skg gak ada.. Haha! But at times dtg lagi.. I guess that's how he feels towards her :) Except, his is much stronger ^^ All the best to him man! And hahas.. Hope they can get together ^^

-"They can because they think they can."-
Virgil

Phone Bills

2008-10-08T22:50:00.006+08:00

Right. This is like Mayday! Mayday! Cindy is having trouble! Mayday! Mayday!

So, what happened exactly? Well, my phone bills have been REALLY high! I do not know why! I suppose that it's the phone calls that I make. However, I can't really remember who I've been calling! I mean, usually, I'll call only Caroline, Sherman and Kinny! Miranda and Jenny too and I think that I called the two of them the most, but the record shows that I didn't them as much! Holly sheit!

Now I'm planning to change my free-outgoing call number already. I mean, this is SERIOUSLY mayday! I'm in deep sheit! My bills have been coming in hundreds!! ARRGHH!! What the heck!! Gotta cut down this month's till below 80, hopefully! That goes for next month. So, if I manage to cut down, I'll end up with about 200+ for 3 months. Which averages to 90+ dollars per month O_O

FREAKING SHIT! That's still too much!! Arggghh!! What's with my phone bills nowadays!!! T_____T I don't understand this!!! Even if I manage to cut it down to 60 per month, I'll still end up with 70+ bucks in average.. My mom's gonna kill me.

Holly crap... What have I gotten myself into?? Really gotta cut down!! Sighs.

Anyways, today was fine. Heard from Sherman that they met out at Anchorpoint for dinner. It was really tempting to join them, but I gotta stay home. It's my DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!!! :D :D :D Whee! A round of applause everybody! ^o^ We had a Teppanyaki-like dinner for the celebration :) A family recipe ^^

In the morning, woke up earlier than my usual lazy self and helped out in cooking. It was noodles for brunch. Then we went to the temple. Thank god, no mishaps happened this time around! Bought some magic cleaning thingy to clean our fridge. Asked Kinny for help XD Haha! Don't know why his help was the first to come to my mind. Welps, seems like today is cleaning day for everyone~~ Heeees!! He was cleaning his own house! XP Lucks to you, dude!

Kenrick joined us for dinner. Just a few moments ago I showed him pictures of Wayne and Lionel, telling him that he resembles them or vice-versa. As expected, he denied. Haha! Not gonna change my mind :P Meet them face-to-face and you'll be surprised, Kenji! XD

And TO CAROLINE: Heys hon, it's your exams!! And well, I don't know.. I've not been such a devout to any religion compared to your other friends, but here's from me. Do your best ya! I'm gonna receive my results on Friday, really scared out of my wits! You can do it! You're really smart, no worries :) But don't be complacent yupz! :)

TO ALFREDA: Heyyyss!! When are your exams?? I have no idea!! How's your math?? Can you do them?? I'm done with my papers!! :D And you said that your papers are gonna start after mine are done right?? Which means that they're supposedly starting or have already started, no? LUCKS!! ALL THE BEST!!! FIGHTING!!! WHOOOOOOOO!! ^o^ Love you always!! :D :D :D Hopefully can meet up after all your exams! ^^ My parents are leaving soon.. But my uncle and grandpa are here :( Sad~~

TO JENNY: Thank you sooo very very much for teaching me!! ^^

TO LESLIE: Hey yo yo! Hope you liked your birthday presents!! And hopefully you read my love letter :P TEEHEES!

TO ISNU: Man.. Again, thank you! For your never-ending concern ^^ I'm doing fine here.. Hehe! Well, for my exams, I'm just hoping that I passed my subjects! I mean, no matter what, I can't run away from reality, right? And I'm not planning to, don't worry. :) Will just have to face the music. I hope I'll really procceed to the next level! @.@ I've seriously never felt this shitty before!

Well, ok then.. I guess that is all for now. Oh yeah, yesterday I got scolded pretty badly by my parents and they knew that I was at Mir's. Shucks! I'm really afraid that her name has been black listed! =S

Good night everyone! Gee, I'm missing Stephanie and Isnu XD

Well, my dear, your heart has definitely fallen for her. Heex finally you truly understands huh. I just hope that everything will go well.. And I dunno, I also hope that I won't lose a close friend of mine x.x I don't want history to repeat itself AND I don't wanna lose a close friend!! Really. More than anything else that concerns this matter. :)

-To love deeply in one direction makes us more loving than all others.-

September Birthdays

2008-10-07T19:48:00.003+08:00

This is ClarissaZ's announcement service:

You have 3 messages unread. First message;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MAMA!!! :D

May things go well in business! :) And have along life! ^^

Second message;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TERREMI

May your life with Mimi go well XD

P.S. Don't kill me!

Third message;

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING LESLIE SANTOSO!!! :D

Although I'm sad that you've left me and gone to another's side, that does not stop me from having you in my mind :) Always!

Your ex-wife, Cindy, Hoping to remove the 'ex' that has tainted her status.

End of messages.

Hihi! In Miranda's house now! I'm being called an insocialable person cause I'm using the computer -.- haha! Which is kinda true, actually. So, shall stop! Well, the main point is that I wanna tell the whole world about my late birthday wishes, and the fact that MY EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!! YEY!!! It's time to rejoice! ^^

.. Whilst the results are not out yet XD

-"NEVER GIVE UP!"-

Back to CHC

2008-10-04T22:44:00.008+08:00

Heyss!! It's been some time already! Have anyone missed me? XD Hahas! Well, I left this blog with a really bad entry.. Really really sad. Didn't mean to leave you guys with that kind of impression. I wanted to update more. Sadly, the end of year exams were really near and I had to mug to save my life! However, I was really tempted to go online BUT unfortunately, my computer broke down. I'm not sure the what was the cause of it. I was in school when my mobile rang and my mum's voice cam through the other line.. "Cin! The computer went "pom!" And there was a sudden fire!"

Hell yeah, I went o_O you've got to be kidding me. So my poor computer was sent for repair and is yet to be collected. Wonder if it can be saved =/ Sadness. All the datas and etceteras there.. Sigh.. First was my Sony Ericsson and next is my comp.. What's following suit man? -_- bummer!

Right. Anyway, have been having great days! Although exams make them not-so-great anymore, but whatever! Forget about the exam part and everything was wonderful! :)

It's been long since the last time I went to a Christian church, well other than the time when I joined Amanda's for fun.. I'm referring to CHC actually.. City Harvest Church. I was once invited there by Sherman when I was still in Sec1. Ahh.. It was really fun! But I decided to detach myself from them because I felt rather bad as I was not planning to convert into a Christian at all.

But once again I dropped by because there was The Edge event. Kinda cool :) Well, my favourite part was the preaching about now and the hip-hop dance thingy. Oh yeah, love the songs too. They always have great songs.

And of course, the meeting of new people. Let's see.. I didn't really catch all their names.. And I'm not sure if I can spell all their names correctly but as far as I remember, these were the people that I met:
Peng - My big bro! ^^
Shi Min - really nice person :) Marcy's sis! :D The valedictorian of our school last 2 years! WOOTZ!
Wayne - the cell group leader
Lionel - Wayne's brother, also Shi Min's boyfriend XD
Christopher - this guy who I marked as very Cina XD HAHA!
Rachel - well, really hyper. But quite when she eats!
Jackson - First impression: Birthday boy! Haas!
Julian(??) - Right, I don't know how to spell! She's SMART!!! And friendly!
Kenneth - Hmm.. Very familiar.. Was he from my school?
Kiat Guan - Okay, fine. That wasn't really the first meet. Supposed I met him before at the alexandra hawker centre! But it's alright :) I now remember his retarded self!
Andre(??) - Orang Indo!! :D Play good guitar but I don't know how to spell his name X.X

Hmm.. That's as far as I can remember.. You know, I have a really short-term memory! I'll see if I can find photos ^^ Took loads and loads of pictures! HEE :D

Ok, here's the time when I just got to meet them for The Edge event. We were supposed to bring spectacles.. Well, I brought shades.

Those are Marcy's! XD

Cute?? ^o^

"That was very stupid!" - Caroline

Yepz, Semi was wearing my shades! (upside-down, FYI XD)
Looked totally like an alien!

Right, that's Peng bro on top of me! Man, I didn't even know him yet when we were taking this pic! XD

Yep! That's the bunch of guys, looked really happy yeah! :)

And after that, we met up again last Tuesday on the 30th of Sept for steamboat!

That's Marcy, Kiat Guan and Cindy.
Oh! I've known Cindy for years. She's Joanne's Sister. (my primary school friend) Explains why I didn't include her in the "new people I met" list ^^

WARNING! Retarded pictures ahead!

HAAAAAH! Peace me!! :D
Totally covered Kiat Guan who's behind me XD teehee!

And after that we played this game called Polar Bear. Really stupid and funny! In this game, there'll be three roles. Polar bear, hunter and villagers. However, nobody will know who is the hunter and only the hunter will know who is the polar bear.
So, everyone will vote who they're gonna kill and nobody is allowed to bust their own or other people's cover. Hence, it's up to the hunter to convince others who they should kill and vice-versa, the bear has to convince us not to kill him! Hees! Cool?
Anyway, here're the pics!

Haas! Marcy died and Semi was like saying "An si ba!" Haha! While meant rest in peace XD

Posting whilst closing our eyes.. Man, I look like I was praying! -_-

Credits: Caroline (Stolen from her blog! :D)

And that shall be the end of the pictures for now! :) Oh wells, didn't take pictures today cause I went off earlier. I just joined them for the worship today. Left during their 3 minutes of getting to know each other, chatting, actually. Big bro sent me to the entrance, real sweet. Shi Min wanted to do it actually ^^ Real sweet too! :)

Anyways, gotta go! :D Love everyone! ^^

With worries,
My life messes up;
With peace,
My world lights up.

With hatred,
My mood goes down;
With smiles,
my anxiety does down.

So why choose the negative,
When I have the positive,
And feel lonely,
When I really am not?

I guess only time will tell me the answer.

Oh yes! I went swimming with Jenny yesterday. Kinny was at the pool side. Oh yeah, Kiat Guan got my number too. Has, real funny guy. Hmms, Just now, I met with Sherman too and his new friend - Kelyn. Sherman was really pissed off. I guess they really shouldn't have done that and I am such a fool. I should have stayed behind. Call myself a friend! Double sighs. =/

And will my exams be ok..? I really don't wanna downgrade or be retained :(

Sumpah, gw mrasa gak enak bgt.. Rasanya I've really let him down.. Tapi gimana yah.. Si Sherman kyknya has REALLY little expectations of me.. Which kinda bothers me cause it makes me really insulted as well.. Gak ngerti dech, dia orgnya bae seh tapi gak tau napa dia cuman ada high expectations towards Jenny -_- I think he likes her! But he's just not showing because Kinny and Semi like her -_- nyebelin!

-Time Heals.-

What The Fuck.

2008-09-22T22:43:00.005+08:00

Well, I'm not feeling really friendly right now.
So what the fuck.
I did things because of reasons,
I don't waver so easily simply because of that.

When I believe in it, I do it.
So what the fuck.
Of course the things I do are not 100% right,
Not all the time, in fact, never.

In the first place, there is no such thing as perfection.
So what the fuck.
This is life,
Live it or leave it.

Okay, there is a reason to everything. Or reasons, in fact. Now, I did things that I thought or felt I should have done. Thus, this is the future me. All the skipping school and etceteras. The same goes for today. I felt bad early in the morning that I was late for school, causing Tiffany and Jenny to be late with me.

Just as I thought things has taken another turn, I guess I was wrong. I was out with Aishah and Dian today. We bought this necklace with LOVE and a ring with LOVE FAITH HOPE engraved on it. My being believes in all those.

With that exact believe too something happened today. Shall not go into that. Anyway, my point is:
I HATE people who blame themselves when they do not even know the real thing.
I HATE people who blame themselves because of the stupid conclusions that they made themselves.
I HATE people who constantly blames themselves, thinking that it's alright; thinking that everything is their fault and nobody else's.

I'm so sorry if this may sound harsh, but if you happen to be one of the people that I mentioned above, I advice you to change yourself. Here's why:
FOR FUCK'S SAKE this world is made up for BILLIONS of people, I swear.
If the world is going to end, are you the only one to be blamed?
If a lightning was to strike me right this instant for cussing so much, are YOU the one to blame too?

Everything in this world, I believe, happened for a reason. Just like how I lost one of my closest friend before. I thought that I can never feel any more disappointment. Hell, I was wrong! That was only one of the smallest type of disappointments this world offers.

I know about my friends who have been very disappointed in me.
I've known of people around me who've been hopelessly disappointed in me.
HOWEVER, I beg for compromises.
If you're disappointed with me, please tell me the relevant reason why.
If you're disappointed with me and have told me the reason why, please please please, DO NOT DO THEM YOURSELF!
Just because you're disappointed in me, does not mean that I have never disappointed in myself.
Just because you're disappointed in me, does not mean that I CAN NEVER be disappointment in YOU.

Trust me, it is not a "revenge is sweet" kinda thing. I am serious. Darn right serious. All the words that I said, my mind went out to you. In fact, it did went out to all the people. Well, except for one because I thought that he was well taken care of. Jumping to conclusions like that is not making peace with me. It is, ironically, pissing me off!

Udah ah.. With this, I think things are almost over. Kyknya gw jg kgk gitu demen. Dia cuman temen bae gw yang dengan sangat. Sad. Nah.. Tentang orang yg gw lagi marah sekarang itu.. None other than Sherman. Bete gw. Gak ngerti kenapa stiap kali gw brng sama Jen slalu something must happen. I feel bad! FUCK!

-Go Ahead And Blame Yourself!-

Confession.

2008-09-20T16:40:00.016+08:00

Haha! Well, 've been talking to Caroline about this. Don't think I'll be able to say it others. Well, for certain reasons, of course. And that's that.

Alright, anyway, stayed up the whole night yesterday. I thought that I had Chinese tuition this morning. Turned out that I did not. Was supposed to have math tuition in the afternoon but Ms Lee was busy with her lab stuff and couldn't make it. So everything's postponed to tomorrow. YEY! :)

Yesterday, I was with Semi, Yao Jue, Terremi, Carol, Mir, Kwek and Marcus. Was kinda awkward for me at first cause I'm not used to hanging with them without Sherman. Haha! But guess it was fine since Semi and Kwek were there.

And c'mon man, people, I do not like Kwek. Why do people always think so? Wrong hypothesis, definitely.

So we ate at PS Cafe, went to catch a movie and then we when to chill at the Kopitiam opposite Cineleisure. However, since the Kopitiam had to close, we went to sit in a circle in front of the stage there.

Umm.. Something surprising. We were talking about what I blogged about in the previous post. Haha! Amazing, huh? And it was.. Carol who brought it up I think.. Haha! :)

Alright, I shall study with Tiff now! ^^ Hope it'll go well!

Okay, It seems that nobody knows about his secret compartment of my entries! :) GLAD!
Anyway, so I've been talking to Carol about the person who i will most likely like. It fell between Joel and Kinny. Well, Joel is sort of not really anymore.. You know. He's like just a fling.. And so it befell on me that it may be Kinny! And I told her how I was afraid that I'll like him and she, being an expert in this, tells me that I've a crush on him. Which I thought may make sense too.. So this is the first time I have a crush eyh.. And surprising to a person unexpected, at all. Gosh~!

-It's About Time.-

But, he likes her and possibly she likes him back too. C'mon, I know her! So yeah.. That's why I've been sort of shunning him away. Afraid that I'll turn to have a BIG crush on him. But nah.. It's just a small one at the moment :) And god, I'm already 15! About time, eyh? Hahas!

Kwek back in school

2008-09-18T20:02:00.004+08:00

Well, heys! Kwek is back in school! :) Wonderful. Look as alive as ever, and as human as ever too. Heard that he's talking (or at least) sms-ing his girl again. GLAD to hear! ^^ Hehe!!! There's improvementtt!! WHEEE!

And umm.. Now I'm thinking about that anymore (referring to the poems that I've written). Now I'm sort-of confused on another thing. I don't know what to say. I just don't understand why it has to always involve me and my good friend. It sucks sometimes, really. And sometimes, I know how they feel and I'll also know that will happen in the end. SIGHS.

Well, let's talk about people who I am really grateful to right now. For a fact, I may know quite a lots of people everywhere. However, that does not mean that I have a lot of friends. You know, not friend friend.

I do realise that sometimes I feel really really single-souled in school. Cause I am an individual in class. Yep yep. My friends are mostly not from my class.

I am glad to, of course, say that I have friends outside class and outside school. So, I'll always have that longing. Longing for the bell to ring, longing for the phone to ring. The fact that most of them are not of the same level as me makes things even harder! Like how most of them have graduated! How they are waiting for the big Os!

Worst of all, I think I'm gonna get retained. That's my real worry right now. I have finally gotten a tuition teacher. I'm so sorry Aisha! Please help me tell your friend that I'm really sorry! My bad!

And yes, so she, Aisha, is one of the people that I am thanking right now.

Isnu too, for always being there for me. Somehow some ways. It's amazing, really. I mean I remember that time when you tried to be all that 'cool' and was ALWAYS ignoring me, I swear. Haha!

Moniq, Haha! This is the real weird one. God, what happen ya?? It just became a routine to meet you whenever you come to Singapore! XD HAHA! And you were so.. EMO! Now you're not so!! Having Channel bag, having those bangs.. HAHA! I mean, the change is not TOO drastic, but seriously! XD AMAZING!

Jack Lim, lol. OMG. Like, YOU WERE MY TEACHER!! Haha! Even until now I still call you Mr. Lim! XD WHAT THE HELL. Or more like, bro, most of the time XP teehee!

Iman, Alfreda, Caroline, Phyone, Amanda, argh.. There's just too many of you. Shall call you Eversince Primary School Crew (EPSC)! Forever in my heart. Including maam as well!

Oh yes, those who are still in school with me too.. Don't worry, I'm not forgetting about you guys. I just wanna dedicate this to those who are no longer in the same school as me XD Haha! Cause I know that I can always say these stuff to you guys anytime :)

Like, without you guys, I'm sure that I'll be super sad since a long long time ago! No time, no distant can seperate us, yeah. :) Much love!!

Ok, the thing is.. Gw gak ngerti tentang si Kinny.. I mean, dia kan demennya ama si Jen! Well, haha. It's a fact that I told Carol mreka kalo ada possibility gw demen ama dia, just like Joel's case last time. Tapi akhirnya slalu ampir sama. Kalo situation itu involves gw, satu cowo and my friend. Palingan cowonya bkl demen ama gw dulu, trus gw udah hampir2, eh trus dia jadi demen ama temen dkt gw yang itu and then gw juga jadinya gak demen ama dia, but at the end of the day, mreka juga gak bakal jadian! Lol! Haha! It's super funny! XD Yah gitu deh.. :) He's a good friend! Forever :)

-And so the same story-line over and over again.-

Thank God You're Alive

2008-09-16T02:08:00.003+08:00

Exams are around the corner,
Around the clock the hands are ticking.
Do I much time till my battle?
I am hoping so.
Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!

It rang so high,
It rang so low.
It rang so deep,
It rang so sweet.
Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!

With my heart beating bloody fast,
With my heart sinking so low,
I realise what had happened.

I was shocked,
I was scared,
I was stunned.
Most importantly,
I was speechless.

Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!
It all went...
Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!
It can never be stopped.

Hi.. Couldn't concentrate much today. Well, it's true that I usually have the Monday Blues. However, today morning was beautiful! I do not know why.. However, things started to take a different turn, changing the day into another Unfaithful Monday.

Let's break it down. Kwek got knocked down by a car. I was really shocked and stunned like nobody's business. A few days ago, I had this heavy feeling that something bad was gonna happen. I thought it was just about my sister's bad results in Swiss and Alfreda's bruise when she got back home.

Guess I was wrong. Well, since the night before that, I have not been able to sleep well. I couldn't sleep, in fact. Now I know the reason why. The reason why I have been having those funny feelings. Maybe, also the reason his name was used in the essay.

It's really shocking. I couldn't believe my ears. Unexpectedly, yes, I went to find Disa for comfort. Hahas! Thanks, Dis. Never thought what happened at that point of time will happen.. :)

Get well soon, best friend! Or.. At least for the moment. I'm starting to doubt my decision. However, my fright against all these.. Are really pushing me. Miranda just almost lost her wallet as well. Like sheit... I am afraid.

-Thank god you're alive.-

Decision

2008-09-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

Decision I have made,
And discussion I decide.
To my alter ego and friend the words fell,
One was silent while the other agreed.

Be true, Cindy,
And everything will be alright.
If it really is true,
It'll come finding you.

A broken soul,
I do not hope.
A broken friendship,
I do not wish.

But words be words,
And feelings be feelings.
Truths be truths,
Nothing can be changed.

For now I'm silent,
Waiting for the future.
Exams around the corner,
My mind trying not to ponder.

Hehes! Thanks for the nice comments. ^^ And yes Dis, that was your spectacles :D hehehe!!Remember that photo?? Taken at Xin Wang.. Some time at the first half of the year. Like, oh my god, time travels so fast!! The finals are so near.. I am so dead! Everyone wish me luck..

And by the way, many should have known by now that I am seldom on Friendster. I am on Facebook right now. For those who didn't know, now you do. For those who do not check Facebook often, please do. For those who do not even have an account yet, create one! :D

And I have been uploading loads of photos there.. Really hope that Facebook will never close down. That wish goes to Photobucket too, cause I uploaded all my photos on those two websites and I can't imagine my life with all those photos gone!! ARGH!

Okay, it's getting late. Catch up soon! :D Oh, I've relinked Dinika. Her new blog's cool. Love it! :) Rock on, Din!

-Truths Be Truths.-

CCA's FAQ

2008-09-14T05:22:00.004+08:00

This is ClarissaZ's announcement service:

CCA's FAQ page has been updated and is up!
Check it out :)

My Thoughts

2008-09-14T03:28:00.003+08:00

My thoughts - declared as theories by many,
May have some truths which can't be truly explained.
For once I thought that it was possible,
For I heard the words "it seemed to be becoming real."

So I made a wish,
Deep in my heart,
That my thoughts be proved wrong,
And believe, I did.

Call me a fool,
For I tried too hard, or so it seemed.
But if I were wrong,
Patience and understanding shall come next.

I am flexible, yes I am,
In the name of fun, I joined in.
If only you look deep enough,
Just a little closer, you'll get it.

Giving up is an option,
As it has always been.
To be or not,
I am deciding.

But for now I think it's still grand,
And I hope that I won't be wrong again.
I really do believe in it,
And I plead for it to be true.
I still believe in this.

Hi hi~~ I have finished watching Absolute Boyfriend. OMG! I totally looooove it to ZE CORE! Okay, the start is not too exciting, but when it was coming to the end, the whole climax will really grab a hold of your breathe!

I did not expect the main character to actually choose Night!! I have always wanted her to choose Soushi eversince they were working together. I mean, that's just the way things should be! I could not believe when she finally made her decision!

"So stupid of her!" Haha! I was screaming that since about 2 hours ago, it can't be helped huh. Dramas just make people go bonkers! Anyway, It's recommended! ^^

Okay, today I went out with Caroline, Ardisa and Alfreda. I do find myself such an annoying person lately. LOL. The proccess of being more feminine eyh? Yes, I do realise that I'm trying too hard to become feminine, I suppose.

I suppose that I'll cut down on that too and be my usual self. Sorry to those that have been.. Annoyed during this time. HAHA!

So, I was late again today. Meong suddenly came from Japan! God, there was no warning or notice at all!! Something is SERIOUSLY wrong with my family. Thank god I was having tuition just now! Cause you know what? I actually planned to meet up with Caroline and the girls at 2PM! And Meong only came at 4PM! Can you imagine what would have happened if I were away??? -_-

And because of this.. Sudden technical problem, I could only meet them at 7PM, which is LATE. We were supposed to have a study date anyway, and it turned out to be a non-studying day for me. Which is, of course, BAD.

I am extremely in need of studies. Yes, I am definitely no studious but it can be born right? I am also still looking for a tuition teacher. Hope I get one soon.

Ko Erwin is also coming tomorrow. This I learnt only this evening before I went off to meet the girls. -_- Really really sudden. All the best for my final exams man! :) Good night everyone!

-I Still Believe.-

Sorry! Pokemon

2008-09-13T03:03:00.004+08:00

Hahas! My god.. Kinny and Jen Weng just went back home from my house a few moments ago. We were playing this game called Sorry! It's something like Ludo, Pokemon version. Super cute!

As always, I'm with the power of water and, of course, I'm the ultimate gym leader! ^^ Thank you thank you! And I can assure you that with the water power behind you, you'll definitely WIN! Muahahah!! :D

Kinny was fire, with Pikachu and Jen Weng was full grass. While I was water with Growlihte! Teehee! Anyways, I was thinking of watching Absolute Boyfriend but I guess I won't anymore. My Sony Ericsson charger is missing too, most probably taken by my sister. =/

So, I shall sleep now! And I'm looking for a tuition teacher very badly! Oh, I'll contact teacher Dennis. Hope he takes students! X_X good night!

OH SHOOT! NO! I forgot to say something!! Kinny is DAMN lousy in cooking!! I swear!! The fries that he fried are CHARRED black. But haha.. Some of them are fine though ^^ Actully, only about 40% of the ones he cooked was charred, hahas. Not so bad for a first-timer eyh! ^^

And AGAIN, he's my princess charming in shining dress! :D Somehow, a cockroach was crawling in my kitchen. Thank god, we were at the kitchen eating and so we caught it red-handed. Kinny the Princess helped me capture the criminal and put it to sleep! XD teehee!! YEY! :D Jen Weng was so frightened and she kept reminding us that she could not run. HAHA! Damn cute.. And I suggested that she evacuate outside the house first, in case the roach flies or something XD haha!! Turned out that it died before it could even attack! :D wheee!!

Alrights, good night!! ^^ teehee!! For real. :) Oh, we had fries and Mi Cakalang for dinner by the way, and Leslie's macaroni with ham and peas. Oh, we were at Leslie's house just now, playing. Leslie, me, Jen Weng, Quan, Wilona and Clemut. Before that Wil, Les, Quan and I were at Vivo catching Babylon A.D. not such a bad movie. Really cool, in fact. Except for the ending, which is rather ridiculous. Sighs, why are the movies nowadays selling their contents more than their ending?? Don't they know that the ending is the most important? Haha!

-Will We Always Say "We've Tried"?-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISNU!

2008-09-10T02:43:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISNU!!! :)
May all your wishes come true and all the best to your BIG presentation on your BIG day! :)
Thanks for always being there for me ya.. Even though you're so far away! ^^

And I am back in Singapore since last Saturday. Was locked out of my house, stupidly. I remembered my boxes, my Indonesian handphone and luggage key but not my house key. How weird, right? Anyways, thank god Rea was on coming here on Sunday. She saved me :)

School has been a bore as usual. My first day in school was fine. Am not feeling well right now. Anyway, Carol asked the guys to skip. I supported her idea and actually forced them to do so. Now I feel bad and extremely hideous. I should not have done so. I smsed her just now but there was no reply. I shall sms the guys now, I suppose. Seriously, my tummy is sort of turning right now. Not because of hunger, but because of total guilt.

Oh, update. I've finished reading The Time Traveler's Wife. It's currently with Ms Lee right now, Ardisa, Miranda and Carol's tuition teacher. Yes, everyone else who are interested in borrowing it, I'm so sorry but yeah, the queue is long. And i have to say that I am greatly disappointed by it. Firstly, it is really naggy and lengthy in unimportant details. Secondly, it's too sexual. Well, the ending is sad.. More like, bitter-sweet. The story-line is good, I just do not like the way it was written. So yeah, kinda disappointed right now but I am also proud of myself. I finished about 400++ pages in about 5 days! :)

Well, I'm on a new book right now. Mitch Albom's For One More Day. I'm about a third through it right now. Pretty amazed at my speed too. Haha! :) And yeps, that's about it for now. Oh, I've just written another story. Yes, again, in an essay's format. It's title is Hope. Will post it up soon ^^

Good night everyone! Loves.

-If You Have Another Chance, What Will You Do?-

Arrival Back in Singapore

2008-09-05T23:37:00.001+08:00

This is ClarissaZ's announcement service:

Hellooo Singapore!
Your favourite Asian artiste, Cindy Clarissa Adriaan (CCA), is back!
She'll be arriving in terminal 1 at 1505 sharp, provided with no delays.
Loves! <3 :)

Set-up of FAQ

2008-08-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

Currently having the FAQ page in progress.

Cindy is a good girl,
Cindy is hardworking.
Cindy has been studying,
Cindy has a test.

Let's hope that Cindy passes,
Passes with flying colours.
She'll pass with no adjusts,
And smiles on everyone! :)

Hey, thanks Freda bestie! You don't have to do that, you know.

All the best to everyone! May your prelims be good news ^^

-Everything that you'll ever need are just beside you if you open your eyes.-

Pissed

2008-08-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

Right, if you realised, my previous blog entry was not complete.

Mainly due to my dad, who forbade me from using the computer and partly due to my proposal for band. Wanted to make it nicer.

Anyways, new updates on the blog. I've linked my blood-related sister Monji and my non-blood-related sister Aishah.

I do realise that I've not announced that my sister had now become a Graduand. Feels like time flies super fast. She's staying with right now in Singapore, playing a part-time mummy as well. Haha.

I am also exhilarated to announce that I am proud of Aishah. After all that you've gone through, it's amazing that you did not resort to your old habits. And it's funny how I actually felt that I was about to start on that habit, you know. Some of my friends asked whether it was because of curiosity, and it's not. I just had this vibe that I'll somehow do it in the future. Somehow.

Also, we have been hurt in a way that is almost the same, yet different. It's been more than a year for me now and well, it seems like I could put it behind my mind. Well, actually, I have the help of the problems that I'm facing at the moment as well. Thus making it sort of easier for me, I guess. I hope everything will go well for you too. Forgetting is impossible but erasing that empty patch is still possible :)

Today. I went out with Aishah, Lady Poo, Chan, Mr. Nonami, Celeste and Fanny. Did I miss anyone out?? Ate at KFC, was extremely full; I could hardly walk! Li Ye is working there and she has gotten her Singapore citizenship. Congrats! :D

We went to BML after the meal again. Was looking at Lady Poo's pictures. God, I was so surprised! He actually looked like a jock in some of the pictures, I am serious. This is not happening. What's happening to the world?? Haha.

Oh yes, I am collecting photos too. Preferably pass photos, no matter how good-looking or ugly you are in it. If you're not willing to give me a pass photo, just give me a photo of that size. :) hee! *goes off looking for more*

Okay, back. After that, we went to the interchange to go back home, supposedly. By then there were only me, Aishah and Chan. Caroline called me as we planned on meeting today. And so I did. It was already about 5PM at that time.

So I took 131 with Chan. He dropped at his house, which apparently is freakishly near my house and is around the SAFRA, while I went to Vivo - where Caroline, Kwek and Sherman were.

I do not know what really happened but they were discussing about how guys woo girls. The person they 'seek' help from: me. -_- I wonder which part of my face says "HEY! I'm the LOVE GURU!"

And then, somehow, we turned into two teams and Sherman became Carol's best friend while Kwek became my best friend. Haha! Oh, I forgot to mention how scary Caroline was. I said something to her, and she was sort of pissed (in a joking manner) and she started chasing after me. My instinct was just to run for my life!

However, due to my low IQ and, not to mention, bad memory, I forgot that Caroline is a Gold-medalist runner. Thus, my so-called run-for-my-life is equals to walking to her and she caught me within 5 seconds. Oh brother, I was freaked out and my best friend just stood there with HER best friend talking. -_-

Jokes aside, I reminded them that their movie was about to start and we parted. (Hey, Kwek is really a sweet guy.) Hope you get over or reconcile with her soon, best friend. It really is a wonder why 2 people are not able to be together when their hearts beat as one.
What went wrong?

So we parted and I called Ardisa since she happened to be at Vivo with Miranda. Haha! Yepz.. Talked and met them for approaximately 10 minutes and I, being a promise-keeper, told them that I had to be on my way home.

I'm such a good girl. :D

Oh yes, my dad just scolded me again. saying that I must be thinking about my friends all the time and yada yada yada. Which is true, but I have been sparing thoughts for them too. I am getting sick and tired of this. Give me a life! I need to lead my own life, I have been leading my own life for the past 7 and a half years. What rights do you have to reboot my entire system now?

I am really thankful to Mdm Norlinda, my geography teacher. She is really understanding and patient. I mean, she has always been very nice towards me and she even talked to me the other day, which sort of helped me. If only all adults are like her..

Well, eversince sec2, my perspectives towards teachers sort of changed because of the fact that there was this teacher who betrayed my feelings. She is still teaching in my current school. Continue guessing.

There was also this teacher whom I've always respected, but I learnt that she is sort of shows favouratism. Of course, it has nothing to do with me as she was not biased against or towards me. However, I do not wish to hope too much, lest hurting myself again.

Madam Linda just showed me that there are still teachers out there who truly believes in their students and proved my stereo-typing wrong. There are teachers like mam.

Anyway, I better go now. It's getting late :) Oh, before I go off, I have to make a few statements.

Firstly, males and females are EQUAL. In the sense that girls can do most of what guys can do and guys can do most of what girls can do.

Why are there no unisex competitions in the Olympics?
-Sexual harrassment.

Secondly, I am STRAIGHT. Why do people mistook me as a lesbian? Mind you, I am a tomboy, but I am not a butch.

Why are you still single and have never had a boyfriend?
-Ask the heavens why my soulmate has not appeared in my face.

Thirdly, I am an Indonesian, and my race is Chinese.

I thought you're Malay? Don't you take malay as mother tongue in school?
-No, my dear. Even if I do take Malay, that does not determine my race, and I take Chinese anyhow.

Fourthly, I am still young and I am not over-age.

You're over-age right? You're a foreigner, after all.
- Yes, I am a foreigner, but no, I am not over-age. I came here eversince I was 8! And yes, son, I fail my subjects too.

Lastly, for the moment, I have to admit that I my head have been quite over-loaded the past few days.

Are you stressed? What the hell have you been doing in school? Start studying! Stop sleeping! Yada yada yada.
-Honey, I have my reasons. Mostly related to home. At least I am not an emo-in-the-making. Yes, I've not been sleeping, son, and I am trying my best so stop pestering me like a bug! I have a life.

So, I conclude that I should make an FAQ soon. XD HAHA! :D Do look forward to that, and I wonder if I have readers at all XD Haha! Nights~! :)

-It really is a wonder why 2 people are not able to be together when their hearts beat as one.-

Met Aishah and Stockings

2008-08-22T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hihi! Today had band as usual. It's the supposedly 'date-line' for my proposal. The thing is, I realised that I left my proposal at home, together with my Mother Tongue textbook and workbook! Yikes!! *bites teeth*

I figured what I could do about the books almost immediately, though. So, that was kinda a safe story. The thing was my proposal. So, I wrote everything that I could remember proposing on my original.

Turned out that Sir Faizal did not come today. Thank God! Well, the wastage of paper and ink is excusable. Definitely worth it.

So, after band, I was supposed to go home and rest first, but guess who I met? Aishah and Liyana Stockings!! Haha! Yeah, of course, I went to them and chit-chat with them!! It's been SUPER long since I met them. Yes, I guess I've not mentioned this, Stockings turned from black to brown ^^

Aishah was wearing what Stockings described as "red". Anyway, so we went out of school. There was Stockings, Chan, Jeremy, Aishah and me. Sorry, new update: Jeremy Poo. Haha!

However, Stockings had school. So Aishah and me sent her to the bus-stop and sent Chan to T-net. Supposed to be studying there, turned out that it was only restricted to members. -_-

So Poo, Aishah and me went to McDonals instead. Met Kimberly and her crew on our way there. Turned out that we met them again near the McDonalds. Haha! So, the conclusion: whichever you go by, be it under the tunnel or above the ground, you'll still arrive McDonalds at the same time.

Ok, here's the real deal. I seldom hang out with Poo and guess what? On our... First? outing, he was already BURPING so loud!! I swear!! He looked so SHOCKED himself! And his mouth was so DISFIGURED! For a moment there, I was stunned and scared. O_O HAHA! I SWEAR! HAHA! If only it was recorded!

An Edited Photo of Myself

2008-08-20T22:47:00.003+08:00

Hi hi, I would like to post a picture of myself. It's definitely not the most recent. It was taken during the june holidays, actually. During Jessica's birthday, and no, I am not narcisstic. Haha! I am just happy at the end product ^^

I did not use any professional softwares or have any experiences before, mind you. So, please be nice to me and yes, comments are very welcome ^^ teehee! Here it is~ :) (I know I look old x.x gaaaahh! I am still very young, I swear!)

-"Peace begins with a smile."-

Mother Teresa

Tarot Card Readings

2008-08-16T21:51:00.003+08:00

So, I've done a Tarot Card Reading. It's with regards to my lost handphone. And yeps, the cards sort of read it.

How you feel about yourself now?

The World

The WorldFulfillment. All aspects of life come into balance. Everything works together for good. Success, and the ability to appreciate and maintain it. Life becomes a joyful dance.

What you most want at this moment?

Death

Radical change. Irreversible loss. Renouncing old ways. Breaking old patterns. Endings. This card speaks of endings which are necessary, making new beginnings possible.

Your fears

The Wheel of Fortune

Luck. Chance works in one's favor. Outside factors improve the situation, bringing new or better options. Make the most of what Fortune offers, but do not expect to get by on luck alone.

What is going for you ?

The Tower

Shake-up. Revolution. "Wake-up call." Sudden change of circumstance. Disaster. Dramatic revelation. Shocking news. Sudden illumination or realization.

What is going against you ?

Justice

Fairness. Balance. Unbiased judgment. Dealings with the legal system. Expect a good outcome, provided that one is deserving and has done the necessary preparation.

Outcome

Strength

Passion. The instinctual nature. Taming of primal energies. Making friends with one's "animal" nature. Strong drives and emotions. One's natural faculties are a source of strength.

Frankly speaking, I feel the negativity in these. I felt that there's this thing in me which says that I may find my handphone back. True enough, the card said so. However, the chances are 50:50 as well. The outcome - I'll be stronger, as I thought I would. Best of luck to me!! X_X

Here's some Tarot Cards for you. :)

My Handwriting

2008-08-16T21:22:00.004+08:00

Hey hey hey, this is not the post that I promised. But as you know, I am currently rather desperate about my handphone, and not to mention rather stressed about it too. I was on Fiesta yesterday (to those who do not know, it's an online game which i am currently playing.) and I met this player who was apparently brought up believing zodiacs and such. I was quite amazed and impressed, frankly speaking.

So, I thought, hey, why don't I check my character out? I mean, so far, these sort of things are usually quite true and maybe I'm even able to solve me current handphone problem, somehow. So, I went to a zodiac website and found this: A Handwriting Test. Here is my result.

Free Hand Writing Analysis Report

You are straightforward in your approach and know your mind basically. You can handle any situation with your poise and maturity.

You are an independent person with fine disposition and no prejudices. Negatively, however, upright writing signifies self-centeredness and rigidity.

Your head rules over your heart.

You are an easygoing kind of person, but that does not mean that you are least concerned.

You seek recreation and work on equal scales.

You maintain stability while handling money.

You are cautious, such that you think several times before taking an action or starting a new venture.

You project just a part of yourself to the world, letting them know your ideas and thoughts a limited extend.

You work with the most-favourable pace and hence, do not have to conciliate between the quality and speed.

You are a dependable and trustworthy person.

You maintain balance between your capability and ambition which helps you to shun difficulties in achieving your goal.

You handle criticism with your cool temperament and dignity.

You have reasonable keenness in the task you undertake.

You like to remain secluded and do not enjoy limelight.

You are least concerned about gratifying the world and rather look forward to your own contentment through the completion of your task.

You have a distracted and unfocused mind.

You are an extrovert and hence, like to socialize with the people.

You use your agile hands very often and are nimble in doing mechanical work.

You believe in living life to the fullest and consider amusement and bliss as very important.

You lack vital strength of mind and will to accomplish you work.

You are flexible and practical which works to your advantage.

The balance outlook of yours helps you adapt yourself according to the crowd.

So, all in all, the result is positive except for the distractive and unfocused mind, of course. And yepz, they're right again! Hahaha.. I know this just a stereotyped test but hey, it's true. I wonder why is it that a machine can understand me so well XD haha! Anyway, if you're interested, here's the link Handwriting Analysis.

FUCK, I lost my handphone

2008-08-16T17:46:00.002+08:00

FUCKING HELL. I lost my handphone. I know that this is not the desirable to talk about after not posting for so long, but I'm so sorry guys. I am really fucking pissed right now.

I do have a post saved actually it's about what I had went through. Mostly about Singfest :) haha! To those who went there, I am sure that you guys had a blast! Shall we keep in contact to go together next time? I don't mind at all :) And yes, I do found out a lot about couple of the bands.

So, anyway, back to the lost of my handphone. I lost it in a taxi yesterday at about 6 PM, at the Bencoolen Link, near a Kwan Im Temple (Si Be Lo) and the Stamford Arts Centre. It is a rather populer place, you guys should know. Well, near there is the Waterloo Street.

I realised my missing handphone the moment I walked away from the taxi. So I tried to call my handphone. I was hoping that whoever found it would pick up the call and save me. My sister suggested to chase after the taxi. So, I did. However, the taxi had gone off and I lost track of it forever, stupid me. I could not remember the plate number, not the taxi driver's number. It was just within minutes! I can't believe this!

The worst thing is that about 15 minutes before this incident, I was still at The Anchorage - in the lift to be more precise, going out to the temple - and I realised that I left my handphone in my room as I was recharging the battery. I told my mum and she told me to get my phone. So, I went ALL THE WAY back just to get my handphone.

So I rushed down to catch up with my family members and the moment I reached the main road, there was already a taxi waiting for me. Yep, you guessed it. It meant that I lost my handphone within 15-20 minutes after I left my handphone. IT SUCKS TO THE CORE. I AM MORE PISSED THAN EVER! At other time when I lose my things, I'll feel sad and all, but this time, I really do feel that it shouldn't have been lost!! :(

I really really do hope that I'll get my handphone back. To whoever who have found it, please return it to me. I will reward you, I swear. It is not only about the handphone.. It's about the things that I have in it. The photos, the memories... I really really do hope that I'll retrieve it back. In fact, if you want the handphone as the reward, I do not really mind at all. I will live on without a handphone to my name. I am positive that my mother will not get me a new one and that is what I am hoping for. So that I'll learn a lesson and make sure that I will not lose such important things.

But, the datas that I have.. And the numbers that I lost.. I was supposed to hold a gathering and I am the planner. I can't contact them now, and seriously.. I have pictures of my friend who had left for another country and probably will not be coming back ever again. I have pictures of me and Caroline having our first time out to TCC for studies and other pictures as well.. I don't really mind the music, I guess. I can get it again. Pictures of SingFest, and actually, the phone itself is my very first first-hand handphone..

So, yes. I can't say anything more. This shall be the end for now.. If you can, please help me search for it..

Number: 83881963
You can contact me at 64726718 for the moment.
Thank you and I am super sorry for the incovenience.

-Will I See The Light?-

Sent Email Announcement

2008-07-22T02:58:00.002+08:00

This is ClarissaZ announcement service:

Ardisa and Shawn Lim Zi Yang, CCA has emailed you the list of items. Please check your mailbox. Thank you and goodbye!

End of messages.

Again and Again

2008-07-22T02:46:00.002+08:00

Right. Just went out with my sisters. Yep, my eldest sister just got back to SG, which is pretty much a surprise. I thought she was going to come here together with our parents, which she apperantly did not, and so I decided to spend the night with them.. You know, reconcilation.

Well, fuck. I've been happy and everything. But my second sis can sometimes really get onto my NERVES. Yeah, she has improved in the sense that she's more matured now than she used to be back then in her early teenagehood. SO? That does not mean anything REMARKABLE.

Excuse you, a scar will forever be there unless you got a rubber to stuff it with. When you drill a screw into a wood, there'll be a hole in the wood when you get rid of the screw! Same concept. It's not so bad if you let the wood be and let it heal. Tree saps may be helpful in closing the hole, but there's not really a point if you keep drilling more screws into the wood.

Well, whatever. I'm just rather pissed at the moment. Will get over it soon enough. Just to let her know that she'll regret it in the future. I don't know, when we finally passed on, will we be able to watch a recap of EVERYTHING that we've done? I hope we do get that chance.

I am positive that she'll watch it with such eagerness and some thoughtful remorse. Let it be, oh let it be. If I'm sick and tired of it, I'll just have to end it :) If you start it, you should be able to find a way to stop it, right? :)

Anyways, good night everyone! Oh! Went to IndoChine just now and met many new people.. Hightlight ==> Tropical Beach and Spannish Fly are nice :D Thumbs up!! ^^

-Let It Be, Oh Let It Be.-

List Continuation

2008-07-20T20:15:00.003+08:00

Okay. Back with the continuation list of VCDs and DVDs we're selling now :)
Korean Movies DVDs

Hong Kong Movies DVDs

Other Movies DVDs

Drama Serial DVDs

VCDs

Alright. It's time to do homework~~ :) And i am rather sick.. So, what to do? And I'm hardly allowed to go to band no more. Need to concentrate in my studies, how? I know that I've not been such a good member. I am not a good IC as well :( sad.. How?? If only someone is able to give me a solution...

-Will a Solution Fall From the Sky and Help a Lost Kid Here?-

DVDS AND VCDS For Sale!

2008-07-20T01:15:00.009+08:00

HI!! It's been SO VERY LONG! 10, no, 11 days!

Anyway, my sister is here and so my life has been pretty hectic cleaning up the house. So, i could hardly go online, but i did a few times anyways. Only to find out that I could not update my blog.

So, I have not much time right now as well. And I would just love to tell you that I am selling things now! No, don't worry, I won't be turning this into a blogshop but I'll inform about it. My sis and I are planning to open a garage sale or a small bazaar of our own to clear things from our house. The things are still neat. So, anyone interested? Do come by, or tell me if you wanna get anything.

Currently we have DVDs and VCDs confirmed up for sale. I have a list of all the items as well. We'll be putting up some accessories too, books and probably things like clock, wallet, swimming costumes, and etc. Most of these things are still new too! :)

Oh yes, many people are asking about the DVDs and VCDs. There are Korean, Japanese, American and a piece or two of Thai, Hong Kong, Chinese.

Here's the first list:

And yes, the picture is pretty bad because I have to fit it into the width of my writing space for beauty purposes. Anyway, just click click on them and you'll be able to see them MUCH better ^^ hehe.. Ttyl! contact me! :) hehe.. By ways of Chatbox, email, etc. Do tell me that it's regarding DVDs and VCDs though :D

Oh yes, last but not least, for those who are reading this, PLEASE help me pass this around!! ^^ Love yaa!! :D and thanks a lot ya!! :D hehe! Remember, there's still Korean, Japanese, Hong Kong, Thai, etc.

-When There's a Will, There's a Way.-

Birthdays

2008-07-09T17:34:00.002+08:00

Oh my god to birthdays! Man! Thousands of babies are born in this month! I swear!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HARVEST DANNY HANDOKO!!! :)

Please tell me something, why this month? So far there's already three in my circle of friends! And there's another coming up! Gooddddd..

Anyways, Havest, please be a gentleman, more sweet, more patient, stop playing games, quickly get a girlfriend and transfer to me school! :D huehuehuehue!

Ahh.. Speaking of which, my sister is pestering me to get a boyfriend man! Hey, Monji does not have a boyfriend too :P hauhauha.. Ya ya.. Nobody wants me! Sad!

I still have ShinHwa and Se7en, etc anyways!!! XP XP XP live life man!! :P

-It's Now Or Never!-

2 Birthday announcements

2008-07-07T21:32:00.006+08:00

This is ClarissaZ announcement service:
2 messages unread. First message;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONICA BINA SURYA!!!!

May you be a SHINHWA like SHINHWA, may your dreams come through with WHITENESS and love me forever! XP

Second message;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL LEE!!! :D

Hehe.. May you be as happy as can be, be charming, be more handsome, be more pretty, no more gay-ness, be smarter, be taller, gain some weight and stay true to your love!

End of messages. Thank you.

Yesh, I'm so sorry that it's just my announcement services cause I don't really have much time.. Haven't done my homework and am definitely not in the mood to do them at all. So, anyway, I still have to do them. Sigh. Oh! Just went swimming. Have been swimming these past two days. And yesh! MONICA BINA SURYA!! HOW COULD YOU NOT INVITE ME TO YOUR BIRTHDAY!! :( hmph! Sad! Oh! Umm.. I did hear you call me you know.. I was turning my head and trying to figure who the hell called me! But then, I saw noone in sight. So I walked on.. GOSH! :( SADNESS IN THE AIR!

-Nothing Comes As Close As Family.-

Found My Watch!! And Was Played With -_-

2008-07-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

Well, it was a bright day on Friday and I was late for school. No, I am NOT proud of it. I am a good kid and good kids don't oversleep or get booked because of mistakes! Right. Anyway, Friday was a very fun day.

We had band, as per normal. However, the contents of the activity was not as usual. Usually, we will be setting up chairs, instruments, waiting for instructions and most probably start practising, have a short session of full band and then go off to our own respective classes for sectionals. But it was different this time around! What happened?

We got scolded by Mrs Leong, our teacher-in-charge, for lousy attendance. We were reprimanded for about an hour or so. Time really did fly.

After she was done, the microphone was passed over to our Sir. He told us about how disappointed he was to learn about all those. Thus, we were taught on paying attention whilst sitting down as well. Of course, we realise that the most probable reason as to why our band has gone down to this was due to the lack of strictness. I, myself, am involved in this. I remember how I used to go for practices regularly without fail. However, starting from this new year, I have been skipping pretty much practices. Not because I want to, but still, it's a bad example, right? The juniors and others may think that I made them up and start making excuses.

I am also a culprit in the sense that I was pointed to be on of the Recruit ICs this year. I did not do a good job, this I have to admit. I believe that I could have done more, taught more, to the maximum of my ability. It is regretful, really.

I hope that for the next batch of recruits, better results can be attained. Yesh, definitely with the help of Michelle and Wai Ming ^^ How can I ever do without them?!

And yes, and pranks. I was totally being played on by Sir! Was told to fall the Sec1s in 20 seconds. Well, it was done but we were told to go in again, anyway. -___- haha! At least Cindy can do it!! :D YEY!!! AJJA!!

Ah, yes, and what did we do the whole time instead of practising?? HEHE! Hearing the LOVE STORY of our daddy!! ^^ Nopes, I won't reveal it here :P Too bad!! HAHA it's HIGHLY CONFIDENTIAL! :)

Right! And Today I went out with the guys - Steffi, Wilona, Ardisa, Siska, Reagina, Anita, Leslie, Miranda, Quan and Mimi - for steffi's treat. It was regarding Steffi's birthday that has just passed about a week ago. ^^

Man! I arrived dang late and I feel SO BAD!!! My momma and poppa just went back to Indo again today =/ So yeah.. That's pretty much why and I was drawing Steffi's Bear!! ^^ I have never really drawn, I swear. So, yeah. Please forgive me if it wasn't all that pretty and beautiful.. :( Hope that you really like it!! And my bear is like the smallest piece of work there! I am saddened! But oh wells, I can't draw well anyways X.X the bigger it is, the more chaotic it'll be! hehex! ^^;;

Plus, today is a really wonderful day! I found my "lost" watch again! ^^ Yeah~ It was inside my saxophone case. Gagagahaha!! My instincts did tell me that I must have left it there, but I had no idea where. Didn't expect it to bet there ^^ Teehee!! :D

However, my MP3 and swap are really gone.. Missing, poof! My instincts tell me that I lost my MP3 at the KTV!! But huuu~ Can't find it even though I've gone there.. Yes, my vibes did tell me to find it the moment I realised that it was gone but I don't know why, I did not go. Sigh, is this what you call destiny? Hahas! And my swap.. Someone must REALLY REALLY REALLY love my saliva! It's always missing man!! -___________-

Haha, so yeah, that's it for now!
Stef, don't think too much man!
Leslie, we are only human!
Disa, things are just weird sometimes, you know.
Mir, you don't have to be scared! Haha! XD
Isnu, update your blog kek!
Bina, Love you!! Love SHINHWA!! HUEHUEHEU!!
Oline, hehehehe! I gotta return you man ^^
Jen, sorry.

-Memories Are Always Beautiful In The Eyes of Everyone.-

House Cleaner Yet Again!!

2008-07-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Yey!! Glad to say that my house is sssuuuupppeerrr clean right now!! Yups! Even cleaner than the last time I said clean ^^

And my aunt is here right now.. My parents are coming soon too, not to worry. Oh. I went to Paragon's SQ today to change my sister's booked ticket. Man, the charge is sooo expensive! Like, half of the price of buying a new ticket! Yeah.. S$977 for postponding and S$43 for re-issuing. Total of S$1020. GAAHH!! I'm just gonna die on the spot!!

And there was a transaction for the payment on the spot. However, the computer hanged on the lady and we're not sure whether it was successful or not. Shawn was there with me and he was sooo relaxed. Well, there's nothing much to be too stressed about, actually. Other than the fact that a double transaction MAY OCCUR if I am not careful!! That is SO not funny!

Plus, I wanted to check at that point of time. So, I called the ANZ hotline in Singapore. The officer said that nothing could be done. Unless I call their office branch in Australia! Oh! You've got to be kidding me! There was a mistake done by others and I'm the one who's supposed to go through all those trouble? HAH! Nice joke! Better luck next time, dude!

But well, we shall just see about it tomorrow. I'm not even sure if the credit card is creditable XD huehueheuhe! Hope nothing goes wrong!! X(

-Just Be Who You Really Are.-

Missy Higgins

2008-07-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

Well, umm.. Hi guys. My grandpop is out of the hospital but he's still not in perfect condition :(

Now my aunt has gone back to Indonesia, Jakarta. Was busy helping her pack up and everything the whole day today. Was so tiring..! Slept for about two hours from 5.30 to about 7.30 PM. Man! Was about to wake up at about 6+ to buy my grandpa dinner. Was reprimanded badly for my lack of efficiency.

Well, not done with any work again. My my.. Homework is out of the question too. Had physics test today. Thus, I conclude that I'll just be concentrating in attending school regularly first for now.

Oh yes, and I am in LOVE!! Yesh.. So love love LOVE Missy Higgins! Do anyone know her by any chance?? You should know her! I swear.. :) Do tell me if you know her.. Seriously ^^ Here, I shall put up some of her vids. These two songs are my faves from her so far.. But hey, all her songs are love! Check them out man!

The Sound of White

Scar.

And The Wrong Girl.. and etc etc!! You just have to listen to ALL OF THEM!! I swear!! She has REAL talents!! All her songs are lovable man! You know how artists usually have some really good songs but crappy ones too.. Hers are somewhat stable. Oh! And make a guess where she came from ^^ teehee!!

Update! Also, I just bought The Time Traveler's Wife. Spent the whole of last night wrapping it up nicely! Yesh, I have not been doing so to my other books, which I regret very deeply about and I hope that I'll start doing so. :) Motivate me! ^^

Right, so that's it for now. Oh yes. Check her out at http://www.missyhiggins.com/ . Ciao!

-Could You Leave Me With A Scar?-

Just cut my hair

2008-06-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hi hi~! I just my hair.. Went to Alika ^^ Right, she just came back from HongKong and guess what? She was there to film a movie!!! WOW!!! OoO yessshh!! Amazing right?? Hehe.. Am looking forward to it!! And yesh, I did not take picture of myself, shall do so tomorrow if there are any requests - I'm sorry.

Anyway, that shall be it now. Oh, I didn't go to school. My grandpop, who is in the hospital, seems to be getting healthier ^^ Good news! So my time not in school ain't wasted ^^

Right, it does not, however, change the fact that I have not finished my work. Shall stay back tomorrow then. Sad. Cya everyonnnee!! :)

-Forgive Even When You Can't Forget.-

Updates

2008-06-30T00:08:00.005+08:00

Okay! Just to put up some notice that I've upated my song(s) now for the blog plus my sidebar :) Hehe.. Yepz! The Targets and some minor changes ^^

Yeps, I went shopping today. Moniq just came back from Aussie. So did my cousin Ci Lina for a day. My cousin Meong came here too but went back to Jakarta the moment I reached here. Did I mention that she messed up the whole house? Well, she did. Practically. Isnu is back in Aussie now.

Sadly, I can't hang out with Moniq cause firstly, my aunt and grandpop just came for hospitalisation and secondly because Moniq's parents are here too. Haha. What.. Fate.

Oh yes, I met Mocha and David too. Always meet the three of them when Moniq is back here ^.~ sigh.. I'm like still so small. Oh yes, amazingly David is in St. Francis - the same school as Harvest. Lol. Heard some stories form him. Huaauhauhauh! Not really out of the ordinary, really, and sadly at that.

Sigh. Oh, and you guys don't worry. My grandpop is alright. He's just rather sickly nowadays. He's aging after all. Seeing my grandparents makes me think of what I'm gonna be like in the future sometimes. I can't imagine a life full of sufferings like them.. Seriously.. It's like a stage where people would usually say "I'd better be off dead than alive". It's very sad and I can't bear even the thought of it.

Anyways, what shall happen. shall happen. We'll take it from there. And Miranda has a new blog but she hasn't told me. I don't even know if she's even planning to tell me. But if she's not willing to tell me, Oh wells. Sad.

Oh, and the update for today. Went to the hospital the moment I woke up. Then met with Quan, Miranda, Joel and Alfreda for KTV-ing. At the Party World. Man. Their promotion is so confusing. I don't even see the point in it. Anyways, it was kinda fun but I don't know why everyone starts emo-ing the moment we went out of the place. No more karaoke-ing, please. I'll just do it with the usual people.

Or maybe some other people. :) hehe! Got a very nice number for my aunt. It was 44223 haha! Oh yesh, and I lost my watch. And if that's not bad ENOUGH, I even lost my MP3 player!! Which is so precious to me.. Fuck! Plus, my mum will definitely kill me if she learns about it. Shall just buy a new iPod/MP3 player with my own money then :( SADNESS!!

Which was also one of the reasons why I wanted to go karaoke-in today.. It's a form of stress-reliever. Guess what? I was wrong. Sigh, whatever. It's okays.. I should have known. :(

Well then, good night everybody!

Okay, don't worry, it's not dedicated to anyone. It just suddenly feels my heart. (Maybe there's a meaning to this?? =/)

-Time Will Never Change It.-

Happy Birthday Steffi

2008-06-26T23:32:00.002+08:00

This is ClarissaZ announcements service:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFFI!!

May all the angels sing,

For your happiness, healthfulness and wealthfulness.

The 2012 Rumour

2008-06-26T15:53:00.002+08:00

Yes, this post shall be dedicated to all the dearies out there who do not know about the 2012 rumour. Here I shall feed you with some of the "research" that I've done. Don't ask me whether it's 100% true or not. Isnu will definitely say that you shouldn't think about it :P but hey, let's put it this way, it's good for knowledge and this will be a good time for us all to reflect on ourselves and everything that we've done and the things or people around us.

In 1971, the McKenna brothers went down to a remote part of the Amazon jungle to
investigate rumours that the shamans.

After a shared hallucinatory episode, the brothers returned to the USA to develop the insights they had in the Amazon. They were convinced that the ancient Chinese oracle - the I Ching, or Book of Changes - worked because it was a mathematically coded form of the time wave system that underlies change in the universe.

The I Ching is a group of 64 six-line structures called hexagrams, which show all combinations of Yin and Yang (like + and - ). Another researcher - Martin Schonberger, in 1973, found an exact correspondence between the 64 hexagrams and the 64 codons in our DNA...

Eventually, they found a complex fractal wave, where each level is 64 times greater than the one below, consisting of 26 levels, which describes all change in the universe, from sub-atomic event durations, up to a universe-length time-span.

When they analysed the peaks and troughs of history, and lined up the Timewave over the wave of history, they found that the end of the wave, when all the sub-waves peak together, will be in the year 2012 !! At the time they discovered this, THEY KNEW NOTHING ABOUT THE MAYAN CALENDAR, or that the Long Count ends in 2012.

The Invisible Landscape was published in 1975, and knowledge of the Mayan calendar did not become widespread until 1987

Credits: http://www.diagnosis2012.co.uk/

Well yeah, I copied them all from that website. There are many other websites too that are talking about this issue. Even in forums! They talk about the Mayan calendar, the natural disasters, the waves, meteoroids and comets, the religions teachings and so on and so forth. Anyhow, if the world is REALLY going to end, if all of us are going to be extinct, then why are we working so hard right now?

However, many thinks that even if the world is going to go chaotic, it doesn't mean that there will be no survivors.. So, good luck to us all!

-Believe It or Not.-

Tired.. Very tired.

2008-06-24T21:53:00.002+08:00

I do not understand this but ever since I came back from my holidays, I have been very tired. Physically. I did not work out, I have not resumed on my work yet nor done any of my homework at the very least. I have just been attending school regularly and waking up punctually early in the morning.

This is just weird.. But maybe I may get my answer in a few days time and if it's true, I shall tell you this: I dislike being a girl at times.

I slept for a bit just now.. But am still rather lethargic and I believe that I do not have the concentration to do any of my homework just yet. Shall do it tomorrow then, I hope. I have to really get it done and over with. Plus, I bet that the teachers are only going to tolerate late hand-ups up till next week the most.

Anyway, my mum called just now. She was with dad and Tepot at Pizza Hut waiting to meet Pak Togar. Man.. When will this ever end?

Shall be a good girl here. Oh, Lilin said that she's coming here tomorrow but she didn't tell me the time yet -_- great. Hope it won't be during our school time.. If not... Well, we can't meet! As simple as that and I was rather pissed just now cause I called the STA hotline in the afternoon all the way till 6PM and none of their officers picked up the phone! How atrocious! I can't believe that they have such a lousy service! Man.. I should complain tomorrow when I go down to their office! A waste of my time and effort. Not to mention phone bill!

Right. So, I realised that I did not really care that much about my family in the past, I have to admit. I used to feel that I'm being pestered, patronized at and pressured all the time. To think about it, I must have been a blockhead. Somehow, after meet my family again during the holidays, I felt that family is very important.

No no, do not get the wrong idea. It did not take me 15 years to FINALLY realise this fact. I thought that this was true when I was young but ever since I was about 10? or 11 maybe, around there. I started to dispose this thought of mine because of the very reasons I've mentioned above. There's just always this part of me that wanted to scream and bring justice to myself. I do feel that sometimes I have that feeling too to the present date but I am more open now. I used to sort of shut everything out, I guess.

Hard reality, isn't it? And have you heard of the 2012 rumour? I don't know what to say. It is rather saddening and it's better not to think about it at the moment. Shall just fight for my youth right now! ^.~

And here's something that I wrote in class. Shall end this as the "quote" of today. Cheers!

With All Thy Might,

Thee Shall Fight.

With All Thy Intelligence,

Thee Shall make Decisions.

Will All Thy Heart,

Thee Shall Stop This Wrath.

Officially Back from June Holidays

2008-06-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

Yepz! I'm back.. And I realised that I didn't blog about my departure to Indonesia. Didn't manage to touch the computer :(

Anyway, I went back to Indonesia, Jakarta, and attended my cousin(aunt)'s wedding party. Was okay.. Can't believed that she's married!! Haha.. And the lucky groom is ko Felix! Drank a lot with my sis on that night. And my sis started telling her all the we-will-always-be-there-for-you speech and made it look like a farewell. It made me cry! Crap. And my uncle cried too, haha. My sis actually thought that I was tipsy -_- Helllooo~~ But many other people were tipsy though.. Lol.

After that, (that happened on the 15th, btw) I went to Jessica's Sweet Seventeen. It was made really grand. Haha in a club! XD oh.. Ci Jen2's wedding was at Shang Ri-La Hotel and Jess' is at Borobudur Hotel. Two hotels in a week! Anyway, they had the same MC as well.. MAN!! He was like "hey! We meet again!" and I realised yeah.. No wonder he looked familiar! XD And I caused Isnu to be late.. He was a candle and I felt badddd super baddd. Very very sorry!!

Oh and I've started on this game called Fiesta. Rather cute.. Wonder if other people know about it.. =/ Anyways, I shall write till here first.. Just to let you guys know that I am Officially Back From My June Holidays! ^^ Hehe.. Will tell you more about them next time ya!! These two are the major events that happened :)

Oh! And to add on with the happy occassions, I loooveee love love love my family outing on my last day in Jakarta! ^^ I just hope that everyday could be like that.. If only...

-Beg For Forgiveness, Not Vengeance-

Killed Another Cockroach and Cleaning the Whole House

2008-06-11T23:42:00.002+08:00

Right. So another cockroach appeared and I killed it. Haha! Isnu is a real Cockroach King cause it appeared when I was chatting with him on MSN! XD

And I practically spent the whole day at home, no joke. Was cleaning the WHOLE study corner! Man! It was sooooo dusty!! *cough* *cough*! Umm.. Much cleaner now! Bestie, I bet that you'll be quite impressed the next time you come! ^^ Or even, anyone who's coming and you've seen my house before! Haha!

I used to have many many boxes under the table. I've reduced them very much. Lol.. Threw the rubbish and gave away lots of things. Pens, pencils, bags, clothes.. HAHA! Wallet even toys! ^^ Hope the people who receives them are happy! :)

And um, I went out of the house for quite a bit actually. Went to IKEA and cold storage, looking for a shoe-repair shop. Man! The one in IKEA has closed down and none has opened in Cold Storage. So I brought those high-heels with me for no reason -_- damn!

Anyway, bought oranges, Meiji Chocolate milk and cucumbers instead. Haha! Disa, I still owe you a bowl of Gohu, huh. :) You guys should try it! It's marvellous! And I went to the swimming pool too.. Cuz my sister felt that the weather was too hot and she couldn't stand it. Haha! Pity her.. But really, Singapore is just too much.. Global Warming sucks.

Anyway, that's it for now. Ah! I forgot to tell you guys. I've finished reading The Golden Compass in 12 days. Amazing ya! :D During my trip to and in China. HAHA! :D It's pretty potical, but good. Not really the best. And am not really a fan of the whole human-daemon idea.. Haha! ^^ LOVE the bear though!! ^^ IOREK! :D

-What Is Life To You?-

Back In SG From China!!

2008-06-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

Hi hi Everyone!! :D hehe!! It's already going to be midnight in 2 mins time! But I'm still gonna blog anyway.. It's been sooo long! Yupz! For those of you who kmew. amd those who don't, I just came back from China last two days. I'm sorry if I didn't text you or something.. Must have slipped out of my over-exhausted mind! I've been from city to city man! Almost non-stop! Hehe.. Have some pictures as well.. Wonder when the heck am I gonna show it to you guys! Anyways, some highlights.

Ancient City of Pingyao, Pu Tuo Shan, Shan Xi and some other place that I can't really remember their names. The first two named are the nicest :D Loved mountains!! Fresh air.. And less heat!! Ahh.. So unlike Singapore!!

And I'm so touched by you guys! Hehe.. I see the taggy board!! And I've tagged as well.. Umm I'm sure that later on some of the messages will be "gone", right? Do you want me to copy them down here?? Right, I think I should. Save you guys the trouble :) This is from the newest to the latest ya.. Just like the board.

10 Jun 08, 23:56 CCA_wilZYT:
ziiipp gw liat yaccchh!! Gila loe! 99 qns!! Dikit aje!! hehe

10 Jun 08, 23:55 CCA_isnu and steph:
Yeah!! But worry not!! I'm back in SG now!! Eh loe org kasih tau gw yach pake nomor apa! Ahh.. Help me pass that msg around too and its meant for whoever's readin this! many flights make me bonkers

10 Jun 08, 23:54 CCA_MEILIANA:
AND i know that u loveeee me to the core sayaanngg hueheuheuhe!! Tenang I'll NEVER ignore that last sentence of urs!! kekekkeke

10 Jun 08, 23:53 CCA_MEILIANA:
Just arrived in SG! And im going back there kira2 this friday And im online now!! Iya.. Gw jarang online blakangan ini soalnya limited time! And I was away too..

10 Jun 08, 23:52 CCA_MEILIANA:
YEAH MAN!! Thx for emphasizing THAT!! I seriously feel so LUCKY that im still sec 3 now.. Phew!! Tapi gw gk mau liat next year!! Ngerii!! Hix.. Eh, loe skg uda di indo?? Gw jg masih blom k indo kok!

10 Jun 08, 23:51 CCA_teph:
hehe.. Teph! of cuz dia masih baca lah!! and he even knws things that i dunno! AS ALWAYS! right nutnut?

10 Jun 08, 23:49 CCA_mirr:
huahauhua!! Well, yeah man.. Tlat.. Can't blame!! And its not important anyways THANK GOD! Haha.. Ngak lah.. Isnu gak marahin kok.. Just you know reminding me XP lol..no worries msges msh bs k baca

10 Jun 08, 23:47 CCA_isnu:
haha! And yesh.. I shall not pass judgements and stereotype everyone.. But can't blame right? That's what my heaty is shouting! X_X and im NOT thinking of uni! Thank you! @_@

10 Jun 08, 23:46 CCA_isnu:
But really! that not bad!! huehueheu! Im still gonna say this in your face: IM PROUD! wheee!! Man!! I tried my ass!! Haha.. Tadinya gak pernah pegang buku gw actually PEGANG LHO!! improvement

10 Jun 08, 23:45 CCA_isnu:
eyhh.. That song sounds REALLY familiar! Kyknya gw pernah come across kali yah when listening to her songs.. Nanti gw check out lagi dech ^^ haha! and yepz bro!! Could have done better I guess..

10 Jun 08, 23:43 CCA_§§™:
regularly muahaha.. I have nothing to say anyway right?? Better not judge.. I'm not all that good myself hehhehe!

10 Jun 08, 23:43 CCA_§§™:
and Ron didnt seem interested in band at all and all those.. You know, always skipping and he wanted to quit right?? But anyway, with this extra respond, theres chances that he'll be respond and come

10 Jun 08, 23:42 CCA_§§™:
yeah?? 's that true?? well, yeah, maybe he IS kinda lazy XD can be seen sometimes.. But I dunno.. Just felt that he should have gotten it.. Cuz at least he still.. Umm I dunno how to say it =/

10 Jun 08, 23:41 CCA_drea':
YOSH!! DREA!! HEHEH MUUUUUMMMYYY!! will definitely tag ya! Tag me too ya!! ^^ hehehheheheheh mummy loves me!

10 Jun 08, 23:40 CCA_teph:
And yesh! AMAZING!! HAHAH! I PASSED THEM!! MIRACLES DO HAPPEN YO! HEHEHEH Im a live testimony of it! XD kekeke

10 Jun 08, 23:39 CCA_teph:
gak bisa makan barennggg hey! I'll be going to jakarta btw hehe.. Most prob this friday.. And and.. Jessica py bdae gmn ya?? Gw no update neh!! x.x well, i did get some from Isnu hehe nutnut!

10 Jun 08, 23:39 CCA_teph:
hehe! Maap honey~~ Gw uda terbang duluann T_T gak sempet reply loe.. And gak sempet update the blog first soalnya apparently, its the day right after my last entry on the 28th ;; maap!!

10 Jun 08, 23:31 CCA:
WOW!! HEY EVERYONE!! YESH!! IM BACK!! Godd.... Tagnya byk buaannggeett!! T^T hikz!! Gw sampe terharu ngeliatnya!! Heheh!! Ok, I shall start replying you guys one by one man! Hehe.. Chronically yach

And now.. I shall fulfill my quest.. Of 99-qns which was given to me by Wil2.. Damn girl! I can't copy the questions from your blog!! T.T Anyway, here they are~ :)

1.What's the connection between you with the last person that called you?
-> Err.. Isnu? Hehe! He's a good friend man! Like a bro, but he disowned me! T^T hikz! XD

2.Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
-> sshhh.. This is a secret! Not really actually but have been doing so on the plane these past few years :P right, it's not a secret. haha!

3.What happened at 10.00AM today?
-> I was cooking breakfast man! Not really. Was helping to be exact :) had fried rice! Yummy!

4.When did you last cry?
-> Man.. Why must these type of questions always come up? Let's see.. Quite recently? Only tears though.. Tears of GREAT disappointment.. A few days before I flew to Indonesia - Jakarta.

5.What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
-> bread? with cheese ^^ deeeelicious!

6.What do you want in your life right now?
-> Justice.

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or do you just put up your hood?
-> Umm.. Most of the time just put up my hood. =/

8.What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-> ON my bed, right? My blanky! ^^

9.What bottom are you wearing now?
-> PJ's pants ^^ Just bought! Teehee!

10.What does the nicest text in your inbox say?
-> Umm.. There's two. One from Shawn something like "... Hahaha! Welcome back man! Miss ya loads!..." And the other from Ardisa "... Lo ke LA aja cin! Stay with me. Hahaha.." ^o^ Almost deleted my whole inbox lol (it's a routine)

11.Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
-> No.. Not directly. But indirectly, I guess so. I'm so sorry.. Because of the introduction of that person, right?? Sigh..

12.Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-> haha.. Nopes! Not at the moment~

13.What was the last movie you caught?
-> Over Her Dead Body if I'm not mistaken..

14.What are you proud of?
-> Haha! This is not important. But anyways. MY MIRACULOUS RESULTS!! MUAHAHAH!

15.What does the oldest text in your inbox say?
-> "Annyong ha se yo! Haha sinting! Ini Lina! Eh atik mo k sg tar tgl 25 june tapi cuman sehr doank sih manjo trg jalan2!" Haha.. That's my cousin XD

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
-> Man! I can't remember! It's a song that I sang in the room.. After Enrique's "Do You Know What It Feels Like"

17.Do you have any nicknames? What are they?
-> Who don't? -_- Monkey, Cindut, dutdut, Boss, Master, ah dut, Monyet, sinting...

18.What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
->"Aku udh nanya jes, but in a diff way" by Isnu yang di Aussie.

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
-> Go to but not sleep right? About 12-1AM..

20.Are you currently happy?
-> Hehe not so bad.. Don't broad over sad stuff right? Make yourself useful and happy! ^^ Always look on the bright side of life!

21.Who gives you best advices?
-> Umm Isnu reprimands me.. Leslie talks sense :) My aunt, sis and Alfreda has characters of their own - totally the opposite of mine.

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-> Right. As if I'll do that, but I know someone who does!

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
-> Alfreda and Isnu. Man! Was scolded like sheit!

24.Is anything bugging you right now?
-> Well, not really. But my sloth-iness is kinda disturbing..

25.What/Who was the last thing/person that made you laugh?
-> My sista. She just arrived yesterday man.

26.Do you wear toe socks?
-> I want to man! But they're EX!!

27.Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-> Isnu I guess.

28.Have you ever had your heart broken?
-> yes -_-

29.What annoys you most in a person?
-> If that person is selfish, SUPER narrow-minded, boastful, immature or just hopeless.

30.Do you have a crush on anyone?
-> I don't know. I guess not?

31.Have you ever donw coccaine?
-> Yes. -_- in your dreams! I'm such a good girl, dude!

32.What is the colour of your room?
-> Mostly yellow and green.. Have a lil of blue on the curtains.

33.Would you kill someone for a billion dollar?
-> Wow.. That depends greatly on the situation man! But for now, nopes. Bye billion dollars! T_T

34.Do you believe in the saying "talk in cheap"?
-> Ahh.. Catch no balls. Do you mean "talking is easier than done"? If that's the meaning, yes.

35.Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
-> My sista.

36.Who was the last person to hug you?
-> My sista.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
-> yesh.

38.Do you have a life?
-> yeah man!! Get your own don't steal mine!

39.Have you ever thought someone died when they really didn't?
-> nopes.

40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
-> it's soothing.. :) Seeps through your heart and it's somewhat melancholy.

41.Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
-> Right.. A person very close to me, can't seem to remember who, but I remembered them very clearly when I woke up from that dream! Was it Joel?? And.. Disa?? Or Leslie?? There were quite a number of people by the way.

42. Last time you smiled?
-> Just hours ago? Man! I'm not an Emo person -_- Although many many MANY people thought that I am!

43.Have you changed this year?
-> uh-huh.. A bit. Changes happen all the time!

44.What are you listening to right now?
-> Was listening to my WMP but I paused it a few minutes ago. It's all quite now excpet for the keyboard sound and my dad's vague snoring..

45.Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
-> Verbally nopes. But cyber-ly yes. Isnu and Clement on MSN.

46.Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
-> HELLO~! Isn't it obvious?! Of course with my eyes open!

47.Is there a quote you live by?
-> Yeah.. Quite a number I guess. Give you one of them: "Always be humble, apologize and give way, but do not let him step on you." That's a translation anyways. Doesn't sound too good?

48.Do you want someone you can't have?
-> Haha! Pretty much..

49.Have you ever played an instrument?
-> uh-huh.. Piano, Organ, Recorder XD, Trombone and Saxophone

50.What was the worst idea you've had this week?
-> to skip school in July? Haha! I don't even think that's bad! XD

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00PM?
-> At home.. Reading book?

52.Are you happy with your love life right now?
-> Hehe! Why not man?? I'm single! ^^

53.What song describes your love life?
-> Ah.. I don't know man. But Start Line by Se7en..?

54.Do the person knows you like him/her?
-> not liking anybody right now :)

55.Who always makes you laugh?
-> plenty of people! friends and family :) And of course, comedians or cartoons. Haha!

56.Do you speak another language other than English?
-> yesh! Of course man! Dude!!

57.Are you blonde?
-> haha! Never in this lifetime!

58.What's your middle name?
-> Clarissa as registered! Love that name! :D hehe.. But another of mine - The Pretty! XD kekek

59.What are you doing tomorrow?
-> accompanying my sis to the doc.. And packing luggage.

60.What do you think you are like?
-> Like a sloth and monkey. Bad combination, huh.

61.Who will you choose to die with?
-> The love of my life?

62.Where have you been today?
-> home most of the time. And down to cold storage and the swimming pool.

63.What game do you play often?
-> Not playing that much anymore..

64.What are you missing right now?
-> I don't know.. Sleep? Pu Tuo Shan!!! ^^

65.If you were to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
-> you mean lover? Umm.. Friends. My lover has to start with being my friend first right? Hehe

66.What are you doing right now?
-> isn't it OBVIOUS enough? Answering this questionaire, DUH! And chatting on MSN with Isnu!

67.Which primary school were you from?
-> Queenstown Primary School and Gandhi National

68.Name 3 colours that you like.
-> All shades of blue, turqoise and silver.

69.What emotion do you like to show?
-> Haha! Happy and blank! XD tahahha!

70.What is life to you?
-> a challenge. A puzzle.. Like a maze!

71.If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
-> it depends.. Will most probably take some time to think about it. But not to bug my entire life..

72.Who did you last chat with in MSN?
-> obvious enough? I'm still chatting with him -_-

73.Who do you admire most?
-> Umm.. Tough question man! Right.. Adolescence.

74.Which month are you born in?
-> First, January. :)

75.How are you feeling right now?
-> I wanna get this done and over with and sleep!! God.. Still have 20+ more questions to go!! -___-

76.What is the time now?
-> 1.36AM and I'm not proud to say it!

77.Where are you now?
-> living room, in front of my computer.

78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
-> Haha! It's still natural man!

79.Why are you doing this test?
-> Cuz Wil2 tagged me :) hehhe!!

80.What do you do when you're moody?
-> Just try to cheer up man! If I can't, then I'll try my best to just shut up. Haha!

81.At which age do you wish to get married?
-> Haha.. Young age is cool! But highly impossible.. So about 24-26? XD Still too young right? But seriously that's a good age.. Don't you think?

82.Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend?
-> I'd say friends. :) Can't say that I'll keep to this forever though. I've not been attached before after all ^^;;;

83.Do you think you have confidence?
-> Well, frnakly, nopes!

84.Who is the person you trust the most?
-> Myself. I'm not self-centered though! But I can never trust myseld to remember things.. So.. My friends? And my family? haha

85.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
-> Yupz! I've seen it before man! hehe!

86.If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
-> to let there be justice.

87.What is your goal for this year?
-> To be able to pass my exams and be promoted next year! XD LOL

88.Do you believe in eternity love?
-> Well, yeah.. I guess so.

89. What feeling do you love most?
-> excitement.. And the feeling of being able to solve something difficult or to know something I've been wanting to know so bad! XD

90.Do you really think it's global warming now?
-> HELL yes man! Even a small kid will know that!

91.What feeling you hate the most?
-> being framed!

92.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-> yesh!! Very much!! You just have to know me better...~

93.Do you believe in God?
-> Yeah.. Pretty much

94.Who cares for you the most?
-> parents?

95.do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-> My life itself

96.What'll you bring when you fight?
-> courage, heart and brains.

97.What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
-> being a selfish imp, and lazy..

98.What would you feel when no one no longer cares for you?
-> a feeling worse than death? I don't know.. I just hope that it will NEVER happen to me..

99.What if your stead two-timed you?
-> ouh man! I got this question before.. Well, seriously, I'll get very emotional.. Disappointed, hurt and lost. But when I'm finally calm, I'll most probably talk to him.. Hopefully I'll be able to ask him the reason behind that..

Instructions are basically the same. Required to tag 10 people for this.

Man! Who can I ask?? Oh well.. Try my luck!

1.Isnu

2.Alfreda

3.Drea

4.Miranda (quickly get a blog man!)

5.Steffi

6.Dinika

7.Stephanie

8.Meiliana

9.Caroline

10.Lakshmi

Will you guys do it??

Alright man! I shall sleep now!! Will be flying to Jakarta soon.. Around this Friday.. Hehe. Coming up I'll have to go for my Aunt's wedding and I hope I can join Jessica for the Sweet 17th! ^^ nights!! Tag me!! :D hehe

loves~

-This Is Our Start Line.-

First Band Investiture Ever!

2008-05-27T17:46:00.004+08:00

Haha.. Well, wanna know something cool? Yesterday we had extra lessons. Physics and math. We were taught on elements and.. Venn diagrams. I have no idea what's the chapter called. Anyway, I'm glad to say that it's simple but totally useless. Why did the teachers even teach us these sort of things? I mean, we're definitely not gonna use it in the future! Trust me. Will you go up to your boss and tell him about the number of elements there are in his product's name?? Or go up to the cashier lady and started counting elements?? It's so.. Unprofitable.

Anyways, the worst part is that the teacher who was giving the lecture was that teacher. I have no idea what's her name as well. Point is, she's ridiculously annoying and nobody likes her. Poor thing. Guess teaching is not her forte. In fact, she's not even good at it at all. Thus, I conclude that she should just get out of school. I'd say the same to my math teacher. In fact, I think this teacher may be a tiny bit better than mine. Bleahx.

Anyway, the something cool that I was referring to was that we had band investiture at that afternoon right after lessons. That was the first time I ever for me. Haha! Cool?? And I've been in Indo right, as you guys should have known, and I just joined them in just like that - empty handed plus with no item to put up. How.. Thick-skinned.

But anyway, I sat there and watched the whole performances and the passing down of positions. Oh, I wasn't the only "newbie". It was the first time for Reagina too! Taha! XD Ah.. Amazingly
I got a position!! Whee! XD really amazing.. :) The new majors are Ron Shen, Rafidah, Cheryl and Janice. Realy expected for the girls but I have to say that I am, to this point, still shocked that Ron is going to be the next assistant band major. After all, he was really quiet, hardly doing anything and as I've remembered, he wanted to quit.

It was quite a heart-breaking news too. I was rooting for Jia Bei to be one of the majors. Seriously, although there is a little language boundary, he has all the qualities I think a leader should have. Those that are definitely missing in Ron, unfortunately. Sigh.. ARGH!! I really am devastated!! Although he got the Section Leader position.. He's capable of doing more!! Grr. >:[

GRR.

I was really hoping that he'll get it!! :( Haha! Funnily, Reagina was rooting for me. Teehee! So cute.. My dears, it's impossible. :) Haha! And I said that it's funny cause she knew that it was impossible too XD haha!

Okay, next. Hey! Who says that miracles can't happen! A miracle just befell upon me! Yesterday too.

Hit the button man!

Okay, here's the deal. I got back my report book and I looked at my results. They suck like sheit! Damn man! Ah yes, Isnu! You've been wanting to know my real results. Here they are.

English Language: C5
Chinese: E8
Additional Math: D7
Math: C6
Science: C6
Combined Humans: B4
Principles of A/C: E8

Haha! Don't ask me man.. I dunno. My results just piiiuuhh! Dropped that badly. But the miracle is that I'm still the Top 10 of the class! XD haha! Sitting at the 9th position! :D and am still the first half of the whole level! Damn, dude! I was expecting to be the last in class or the last few and to be at the last half of the level! LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER! :D

Okay, and so yeah.. I'm in need of hair trim and and I've finished reading The Five People You Meet In Heaven. Have actually done so for a fews already I think. Just that I've been forgetting to jot that down. The book is beautiful. Much nicer that the "award-winning" Tuesdays With Morrie, I'd have to say. The two have really strong morals but I prefer the Five People much much more. Tuesdays gets rather boring mid-way. =/

Okay, that's about all for now :) hehe! My percentage is super bad. 52.3%. And haha! Don't even talk about MSG. I'm just super proud of myself that I've improved in both my math although I still fail one of them and barely passed the other. =D Haha!

School on the 26th

2008-05-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

Okay, now, let me tell you what happened when I was in Indo. On my arrival, I was darn hungry. Yes, I was on a budget airline- Lion Air- and, yes Stef, "it is not safe and very risky" you should say all that to my mum! Well, I did, actually, on your behalf. She said that Lion Air actually is one of the largest aeroplane companies right now. Must be quite trustworthy then, no?
Anyway, back to the point. Since it was budget, we did not have food. Only plain water, a cup at that. Was very tired plus hungry and there was no food. So I told mami that I wanted some food to save my life and we could not go to any restaurants cause of the traffic congestion; you guys should really come to Jakarta to realise just how lucky you guys are.
So, what am I to do? She wanted to call for a home delivery for meatballs since I had the craving for Indo's meatballs (they have really delicious ones), but unfortunately, she didn't have the number. So she called her sis-in-law and I was invited to have dinner at her house!! :) yippee! How generous of her! Heard there was Empek-empek there (this was the reason why I was extremely delighted to be invited in) and I just love Empek-empek.
Okay, fine. To tell the truth, I did not know that I was going to have my dinner there as Mami only said that I was to be there for the Empek-empek full-stop. When I got there, my aunt-in-law then offered me to have my dinner there as well. And so I did. I do not know why but everything on that day seemed so budget XD haha.. It was delicious, by the way! My aunt-in-law really knows how to cook and I am so proud of her.

And because of this, I was able to meet my.. Cousin.s. Ko Hendra, Ko Richard, Steven, Ko Arthur and Ci Hilda. Well, I don't really Ko Hendra but I've met him before a couple of times. Don't really know Ci Hilda too and I can't seem to remember her that well must have met her once of twice only before. It's been a very very long time since the last time I met Ko Richard, Ko Arthur and Steven. The last time I met them, I believe, was when I was still 8-years-old. Pretty long, huh. Half of my life ago.
I wasn't that close to Ko Arthur cause he's way older than me, older than my first sis. I remember that I used to play with Ko Richard and Steven. Ko Richard is a couple of years older than me. Remember him being this very serious guy. Didn't really talked much with him but I did know there was a sort of hostile atmosphere between him and his brother. Well, you know, siblings, always have those little conflicts, but they were fine.
As for Steven, he was the brother that I was referring to. We're the same age :) Played with him too. Didn't really talked much too but, seriously, I could remember very vividly that everyone around us always compares us. Our height, our degree of.. Fatness. I was the tall and fat one, as always. The reason they compared was because of the fact that I'm a girl and he's a boy too. I never really thought much about it but I do wonder whether he did. After all, he is the guy, right? Could have given some negative impact, no?
Anyway, Ko Richard went to America for further studies some time after I left for Singapore. Steven still studies in Jakarta. Well, I don't know why but I do have the feeling that Ko Richard has somewhat changed from who he used to be. He used to be, ya know, always reading the newspaper, listening to the adults and so on. Haha! Guess the Americans are getting into him.
Nothing really changed in Ko Arthur, I guess. always that much taller than me. Oh! He's working now :) Have been working for a few years already for papi.
Nothing really changed with Steven too. Oh! He smiled at me when I waved at him when we met ^^ Happy~! Hehe.. He hasn't forgotten about me! :D Yes, Ko Richard did not -_-. For Ko Arthur, you don't have to ask. Of course he'll remember, right? He was old enough. Haha! I'm not trying to be mean! :D

Let's talk about the next day then. Yes, I did not meet all of them on the first day, by the way. Met them all on the second day except for Ko Richard. Oh! Did I tell you that I met his boss? Yes, he's a part-timer. All of his cousins are too. Well, they are my cousins-in-law. Anyway, their boss is super nice. I can bet with you that she must have lots of rocks. For a fact, I did not know that she was his boss at first and just talked to her. Haha.. Little did I know that she turned out to be his boss. God, she was so nice, I swear. I would have imagined that a boss would be fierce, unfriendly and all that. Oh, and she is very young-looking too. Definitely didn't look like her age. I thought that she was 50 plus. 52 Maybe? Turned out that she was about 63! O.o Must have been because of her nice nature!! It's really shown all over her face!

Haha.. God that made me talk all about her. Anyway, the next day was blogged already. You know, the part when I puked and the Rosemary Prayer. As for my last day, I woke up later than the day before thanks to the dinner from before. God. Didn't tell my aunt and uncle - whom I stayed with and got scolded. x.x Sigh, it's okay. Anyway, I got my fortune told as well. Seriously, my uncle's sister has the strong ability of fortune-telling. She even foretold that I was working while studying. Sheit, I just denied since everyone else were there. I feel bad! x_x She also foretold that my English and Sciences will drop drastically, which I have been realising these past months!

Anyway, that brings us to my airport experience. Went there too early and the gate to the waiting area was not even open yet! Couldn't believe it! There was no chair and thus I went to a cafe nearby. Super expensive for goodness sake! But well, It was alright I guess since it's 3 US$ actually. Just looked expensive because of the fact that it was sold in Indonesia's airport. International - I have to remind myself.
Before that, when I was checking into the immigration, the officer was staring at me ans asking, "have we met before?" duh no. Then he continued to look and asked again if I was sure that I have not. Man, stop flirting will you?
And he was like, "oh, to Singapore, is it?"
"ehem"
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
"... hmph :)"
"Where's your boyfriend? He's not with you?"
"ehem"
"So, you're just living him behind? How mean!"
"ehem"
"Okay.. When are you coming back?"
"I dunno."
"How could you leave your boyfriend like that?"
"... hmm haha"
-_- what the.. Right, I wonder where my boyfriend went to. Hey, dear, how could you leave me? :) haha! *grins*

So yeah.. I guess that's about all the memorable ones. Oh, I broke some eggs that mami bought from the supermarket. My bad. Got some things from there to here too. Oh, lots of comic books :D Whee! Marvellous, eyh. And some other things, not gonne tell you :P OH! The baggage was super heavy!! Brough too many stuff.. Even had some vegetables into my backpack! Goodness gracious! Glad I'm not a hunchback now! phew! -_-

Hehe, okay, shall end this now. Tah~~ I wanna swim!!~~
~_~

-I Entrust My Heart To The People Near Me, To My Friend.-

Back In SG

2008-05-23T23:25:00.004+08:00

Heyy~~ Just to say that I'm back in SG~!

Just to show you something that I found XP

Golly~ Wonderful??

And I found this :)

-Actions Speak Louder Than Words-

HAPPY BIRTHDAYS

2008-05-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WISHES

To:

MAMI MUI

INGKIM

SHERMAN SOTERIOS SEAH

STEFFI ELVIRA ADRIAAN

Don't Come To Indo!

2008-05-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone! In Indo right now. Am at my aunt's place and they're having a gathering. The Rosemary Prayer gathering, where they pray for Mother Mary. Anyway, I have a bad news to those of you who wanna come to Indonesia, especially the big states like Jakarta (capital). There may be a riot. They said that the chances of having one is as high as 20-30%. Not good. Just hope that the mishap which happened in 1998 will NOT repeat itself. Gosh, it was like HELL man!

Okay, now. For my flight back to Singapore, it'll be tomorrow. Supposedly at 5.15 PM from here. So I'll reach there at about 6 PM? Yeah, will try our best to get out of harm's way.

Oh yeah, another one. I just puked just now. Shucks! Well, ate just now, at this place as well. Just a couple of meatballs a-nd bee hoon. Seriously, I have no idea why but I was bloated like HELL. So yeah.. I tried to walk around and jumped and do all sorts of things in hope that it'll all go down to my tummy and get digested. I even asked Ardisa and Isnu on what I should do.

Yeah, it was all to no avail. I finally gave in and vomitted most of my dinner out. Gaahh.. Hate the feeling of vomitting. Need some water.. Will get some later on then. Anyway, a few moments after I puked, my cousins came into the room. The rooms stinks. I feel sooo bad. I think they got the wrong idea. You know, poop. When I actually.. Puked. Argh, whatever. We just kept silent about the stench x.x

Sigh, how embarrassing. Whatever it is, I shall end this here. Sweet dreams everyone!! Good night. :)

-Passion knows no difference or conflicts.-

Flying Back to Indo

2008-05-21T09:20:00.005+08:00

Hies.. Will be going back to Indonesia today. It's not for the holidays yet, though. It's only to help do some things. I need to meet my aunt and uncle there as well.. And do some visa.

Sigh. The thing is, I don't really wanna go. Cause I just I realised yesterday that some people have lied many lies for my sake. Fuck. I hate it when I get people into trouble. I didn't expect those lies too. Maybe the light ones, not heavy ones.

Anyway, couple of days ago I went to Sentosa! Gosh.. Been so long since the last time I went there. The last time was.. For the Balloon Hat Festival. That is also because of a school function. Never went there again for my own leisure.

Went there with Amanda and Alfreda and some of my primary school friends. Niger and Ian. The whole thing was initiated by Amanda's church. So we just tagged along ^^ Hehe. Ian's from Amanda's church too, by the way. It was fun! Fun fun fun!! ^^ Teehee.. Oh!! And I

Right, I was cut. Sorry about that.. Had to bathe and go to school. My dad wanted to see the my form teacher and was told to do up my file properly x.x Shucks! Which reminds me.. MY E-MATH FILE!! HUIKZ!!! X_______x I don't know what the hell am I gonna do about it!! GAAHHH

Right. Anyway, back to my story. And I leant how to cycle already! WHEEE!! Isn't that wonderful?!?!?!?!?! WHEE!! ^o^ teehee.. Man! I owe Amanda's friend a treat!! Can't believe that I could do it!! I'm not sure if I can do it again.. Hope I can still!!! =D Feel so so ssssooo HAPPY!!!

Ehem.. And then ya. I know that this is a blog and I shouldn't tell everyone in the world about me scolding a person. But I did anyway. It's a fact that I can't run away from. And am not planning to run away from anyways. Seriously, I think that a person, who says sorry and did so because he said he knows what he had done wrong, but still does it , is an asshole. With capital A. If he does it over and over again, he's a F-ing Asshole. With capital F and capital A. Get the picture?

It's also better for me to say it out rather than keeping inside me. What's the point of keeping it, right? Or maybe it's just me. Take it or leave it. =P Or would you rather me saying "Oh, I'm so sorry. I don't know what the hell I was doing." LOL. Or "I don't know what the hell I was saying." Either way, that's so.. Rude. Plus uncool plus whoever says those kind of things without thinking is an asshole. Don't you think that it'll be amusing? Well, it amuses me.

So yeah, that's about what has been happening. Oh, went to eat at People's Park yesterday with my parents. Super filling. I actually ate with Miranda just before that but I didn't tell them. They'll kill me for sure.

Oh yes, Madam Abby Choo was with us for the English mass lecture on Friday, was it? It was cool. We got scolded, sad to say as usual, and she was the one scolding us. She really was cool man. Speaking in a soft voice but her words pierce through people's brains. Love the sentence when she said something like "Who gave you the rights (she used another word which I forgot. Was it odiousity?) to speak like that? I was asking a rhetorical question, don't you know?" Pretty cool, right?

Oh yeah and I wrote this small itny message to Miranda during class telling her about what I realised.

And this shall be the end of my entry for this period of time. Till next time, See ya! ^^

-Once A Friend, Always A Friend.-

that is, unless something happens xD

Welcome Back Footdrills

2008-05-17T13:26:00.003+08:00

Okay, for a fact, I've no idea what to blog about right now. It's a Saturday.. 1.28PM. Oh well, let me recall what has been happening. Umm.. On the 15th, had lessons till 3.30 as per normal. Oh, there was supposed to be this theory test and I wanted to go but I forgot.. So I went straight home. Oh! Akong Nicky's family has a new stall in Anchorpoint!! Do you guys know that?? Haha.. Well, Nicky is my primary school friend. by the way. He's my "grandfather" ^^ Well, it's the newly-opened Mister Crepe and I'm loving it! :D

On this day I met Harvest, Soon Ji, Jenny, Rena, Hui Min, Francita and Aron. Alfreda and her friend wanted to come down as well but at a later time. So yeah, I couldn't wait that long. Parents waiting at home.

Oh yes, my sister's friend was at Anchorage too. He was here to meet his friend, the one living at Block E. He's Niki.

On the 16th, yesterday, we had band again. Welcome back footdrills! Yes, it's been such a long long time since the last time we had any footdrills. Seriously, I'm getting pretty much corroded and need some oiling. did some timing and it was way off. And of course, it is quite obvious who is going to be the next band major already ^^ Teehee..

Oh ya, the band investiture is around the corner. Really last minute notice. I have no idea why the teachers are doing this to us. Or, the commitee.I really wish to go for this year's investiture. After all, I've been missing the past few investitures. Frankly speaking, I sort of feel left out in almost everything. I have no idea if I should blame anyone for this. You know, myself? My parents? My nationality? It's really hard to excel in a place which does not belong to you. I hardly even belong anywhere right now. Haha. How ironic.

So, yesterday was pretty tiring but we managed to pull through. Umm.. I am, however, rather confused with the commands. Like the command for you to be able to rest on the spot.. It's supposed to be rehatkan diri but it wasn't. Also, the command for you to check your alignments to the centre.. It's supposed to be ke tengah lurus but the command given to us yesterday was still ke kanan lurus. Which I am sure is wrong. Can't possibly say this in front of everyone.. They'll start saying that I'm cocky and all those stuff, right. And I don't really like to seek attention anyways. So, oh wells. :) Oh, ke kanan lurus means check your alignments to the right by the way :)

Okay, and it brings us to the 17th - TODAY!

God.. The sentence above just reminds me so much of The Five People You Meet In Heaven, written by Mitch Albom - the book I'm currently reading and am about to finish it soon ^^ You know, he always goes "TODAY IS EDDIE'S BIRTHDAY - ... ..." Haha! XD

Anyways, was supposed to have band today as well. Woke up so god darn early today. Turned out I do not have to go cause, well, had to accompany my parents and grandparents. Anyway, I have to go now. I'll leave you guys with this picture :)

Continuation of Pictures Dedication

2008-05-14T16:22:00.004+08:00

Alright alright. Here's the continuation of the last post. Sorry it took me so long.. My parents are here. Fortunately and unfortunately as well.. So yah.. Get the picture? Can't hang out, can't use the comp, can do nothing.

Yes, if you're aware of my job, I guess I should probably tell you this: I had to cancel my job when my parents came. No, not resign myself. You know, cancel for the day.. And the rest of the week. Not pleasant. No, no, Henry, my manager, was pissed off. Very. I can do nothing! Remember? They came her all of the sudden! No news, no wind, no typhoon whatever so naughts. My bad.. My irony.. Lose a whole week of salary T_T. But it can't measure up to our parents' worth ya. But still.. T.T

Anyway, the results are out. Wanna know mine? They're bad. But I'm still smiling :D It's not gonna bring me down! ^^ Hail me!! =D Hmm.. Let me tell you my results on the draft. These are the WORST results I've ever gotten in my whole life, I swear. I couldn't even pass my English! Unbelievable!! It's ridiculous! Really. I'm happy and surprised that I still passed my sciences! ^^ Amazing!! =D Teehee!!

E-math:F9
A-math: F9
English: Not out yet but looking at my marks now about E8.
Mother Tongue (Chinese): F9
Humanities: C6
Sciences: C6
POA: E8

Alright, enough about my studies. Not the best results ever. Don't ask me why. I did try my best. Foooohh... Here are the photos! :)

Just who is that person!

Sweet~~

Good picture lost :(

And I'm so sorry. My mum was using the computer again.. Can only get back on it right now.. It's 8.55 PM. Jus finished swimming ;) long time no swim! ^^ Oh god.. Shawn is crazy.. Why get himself into so much trouble??

Guess who's that sleeping~ XD

Of these...

It was in the middle of the night, or should I say morning, and we had fun! ^^ 19th April. Sang songs, took pictures (there are MORE) and.. ATE XD

Well, yeah. That's me trying to leave them some notes cause they're fast asleep.. Oh yeah, chef has a voice like the guy who sang "Find Way Back Into Love".

And finally the toilet.

Pictures Dedication

2008-05-10T19:56:00.003+08:00

Pictures Dedication

Alright.. I have many pictures that I've not posted. Thus, this post shall be dedicated for pictures for your eyes to enjoy ^^ And I'll give a short update at the very end most probably :)

Okay, never mind. My parents are here!!! ^o^ At least there are two.. Make a guess who I was referring to for the picture?? :D HEE HEE!! So wonderful right?? I wrote that in when there was a students' feeback form! :D

Okay, my mum wanna use the comp now! I've uploaded some other pics too :) good night!!

-Who says that I can't be Feminine?-

Lizard's Dead

2008-05-10T02:06:00.005+08:00

Right.. Why are there so many pests lately?? I have no idea, my dear. But lizards aren't exactly pests, ya know. They help us eat up those annoying mosquitoes too! Well, I wonder why the one in my house is able to survive, though. Hardly any in my house. In fact, how did the lizard clan manage to survive living in Singapore? There were hardly any mosquitoes in Singapore in the past.. Only recently, those 6-legged creatures started flying around.

Well, whatever it is, I am here to say that my days after the last post were okay. Except for the fact that I do not like the bin chute. It has all sorts of bacteria and unpleasant things inside it! Gosh.. I always loathe the time when I have to throw my bags of rubbish into it.. Who knows roaches may run their way out of the opening and into your BEAUTIFUL house!!! ARGH!! Destructive!!

Yes, you may have guessed it. I touched on that fact because roaches just DID crawl into my house from the chute when I opened it.. Killed them instantly on the spot. HAH! Serves you right!

Well, let me make an announcement. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRANDA!!! It's her birthday today! Went over to her house early in the morning. I almost died, I swear. Had not enough rest and it kills man. Don't ever skip your beauty sleep!

After that, we did some things. The people played while Ardisa and I watched YouTube. Watched SuJu and DBSK.. GOD!! HOT HOT HOT!! XD And COOL TOO!! :D Teehee.. Unbelievable!! And I can't can't can't wait for my copies of ShinHwa albums!! Hmm.. I'm just wondering about what's going on with the mail that I posted.. It didn't seem to reach Wenyi.. x_x My 36.50 bucks!!! That's really alot man!! I checked my mailbox just now and received no rejected letter or anything like that.. Hope Wenyi got it soon x.x

Okay. So, Just now there were Miranda, me, Jenny, Jessica Ang, Anita, Ardisa, Steffi, Sherman, Wilona, Soon Ji, Shawn, Joel, Leslie, Dinika, Li Gui and Quan. 16 people in total? Then Ardisa and I went home cause we were super tired. Didn't have enough rest the night before. Thus, I shall end this entry as well and go to sleep. ^^ Good night!!

Some pictures of today:

Ooh~

Nerdy~~!

*ehem*

Cool??

Who's at the back? XD Li Gui!

In ze Toilet

I dunno where the heck my eyes went to..

Like this picture :)

Cute?? XD Just woke up..

Chuu~

Right.. Bless you!

-Listen to Your Heart.-

Roaches, Now Lizards

2008-05-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

Okay. This is definitely not good.*shivers* a few days ago I just battled out roaches; which still leaves me quite paranoid right now.I thought that this bad event shall end there at that. Guess I was wrong.

Moments ago before I got onto the computer again, I heard plastic muffles coming from my bin. Bet there's some sort of animal in need. Less likely to be another roach. I think it's a lizard. Didn't see it, though.

Well, that's not it. I'm not such a baby! I went to my room to put back my bolsters and blanket. Then to my study table. It's on the way, you see. I heard another sound coming from the boxes under my table.

There was a lizard!! Not just any ordinary lizard, I swear! It's got 6 legs.. Super fat but flat and super long tail! The weird part is that the last pair of legs is somewhat at the tail.. What the hell. It's SUPER FAT. Disgusting!!

It could hardly run.. And the thing that came into my mind was to kill it. Annihilate annoying pests and disgusting animals too! Over with roaches cause I, proudly, am announcing that I've bought baygon yesterday.

So, I thought that I could use the same baygon to kill the freaking lizard as well. Sprayed and sprayed to no avail. It's still alive!! And flat.. And fat. SHEIT. So disgusted right now.. I wanna clean my house!! My mom's not telling me where she kept some of the equipments are kept!!

Somebody, seriously help me. I need to know how do you get rid of these creatures?? I know they do you good. But mutated ones or too many of them just gross you out, you know. Or at the very least, please, teach me how to catch them. I need to keep them away from me, before I become paranoid.

I am already sort of having a roach paranoia. I don't need another "lizard-paranoia" to add on to it. My life will be SO miserable. Okay, I can still take it right now but, I swear, if I see another species of animal that I dislike, THAT'S IT! I've enough!

Okay, anyway, before this, I went over to Calvin's. Haha. What a good boy! Cleaning the house and everything. When I stepped into his house, the big mirror in his dining room reminds me of a house. A house that I visited before.. Was it a deja vu? Gosh.. If it is, I could actually see that I was going to his house?? That's amazing!

Anyway, today we had the second paper of E-math. Really not simple. Went to TBP anyway to eat lunch. Was in the bus and there was a girl who called me from the back. Was wondering who she was.. Turned out that she is being taught by Chrystal too. Haha! Amazing.. Well, I know how she knows my name. Must be from Chrystal but how did she know my face?? =/

Anyway, we had some honey just now. God. I'm broke. Left with 4 bucks?? Only. How shitty. Still have some more though but I haven't withdraw them. Oh, I haven't liquidified my cheque too..

Ah, now talking about my paranoia.. I guess that I AM already paranoid. Sheez! Goddamit.. Hope I can go through this.. x_x

Tomorrow is POA!! Cindy!! You can do it!! Fighting!! :)

-Somebody, get me out of this paranoia, PLEASE!-

Just For You.

2008-05-07T01:21:00.004+08:00

Alright, I said that I was going to watch and sleep after that. Guess that's not possible anymore.

Girl, this is just for you.

I know that you came up to me yesterday and the day before,
And even the day before that.
I can see the look on your face,
Not one of the best - not one that you'll wish to have.

Did you try to tell me?
I'm sorry I've not been listening.
Sorry I did not stop whatever I was doing
Did I try to ask?
I think I did..

You did not tell me,
What happened?
I read what your heart was trying to scream.
You screamed but my deaf ears heard only muffles.

Here I am waiting,
Waiting for you.
Waiting just for you.
So tell me everything.

There's a better solution for everything.
Whatever shit you're going through,
Whatever hell is eating you inside.
Let them out.

Remember the promise you gave me?
Girl, I told you once, I told you twice.
No more cuts, no more smokes.
No more bleedings.

I was disappointed once
When you did not tell me about the smoke affair you got.
Whatever you do,
Tell me.

I won't give up on you,
But when I found about what you kept from me,
Something inside me tore too.
Did you know that?

I was lost for words.
I just shut myself up
And stayed indifferent.
So please...

Please, don't give me an empty promise.
But if you can't hold it back no more,
Tell me the truth,
Don't hide.

Don't hide,
Don't run.
Face it,
Share it.

I'll be here for you, girl.
Anytime, anywhere.
Wanna send me letters?
Wanna tag me?

Whatever it is,
Just give me a holler.
You know I'll be there for you.
Loves.

Slept Through Chem Paper

2008-05-07T00:56:00.003+08:00

Well, Hi everyone! Guess what happened?

I'll tell you first that I studied last night till 1 AM. So hardworking, no? I managed to memorize the whole radical compunds! ^^ You know.. Carbonate, Nitrate, Phosphate and Sulphate.. Lol! I feel smart!! Like a dumb.

Well, the thing is that.. I was tired, I bet, and the paper was boring. So, I fell asleep! ^^;;. No, it's not cool. Seriously, I fell asleep! We had one hour and 15 minutes. The paper was supposed to end at 9.15 AM. GOSH! I woke up at 9! That was also because Ms Yu had came to my rescue! Thank god.. Thanks Ms Yu..

But it does not change the fact that I've used up most of my time, right? So yeah.. I did what I had to do in order to save my paper.. Hope I can pass!! x_x I feel bad.. Caroline had gone through so much to teach me and all.. And they have wasted so much time on me! I can't bear to see myself fail.

Firstly, I'll let them down. Secondly, I'll let myself down. Ok, don't talk about my parents. They'll definitely strike a knife down my neck.

So, yeah. That's about today. Accompanied Caroline to eat lunch just now. Then we bought ice-cream from 7-11.. OH SHEIT!! YA!! I forgot to return her!! I promised her that I'll return her the moment I withdrew at IKEA!!

Aisshh.. So, anyway, we went to IKEA to withdrew. Actually, she wanted to have the IKEA ice-cream but changed her mind when I bought the ice-cream from 7-11. I got a Wall's topten and she got herseld Cornetto.

Yummie! :) Then I went home, slept till 7 +. That's from 2. OH GOD!! I just turned my HEAD and I saw Search for the Next Doll!! GOD!! It was on TV in my sister's place LONG LONG TIME AGO. She got me hooked and I've been watching it last year on YouTube. Lol. One year later, it's on Singapore XD HAHA!

Love Mellisa and Asia!! :D Heehee!! Chelsea's cool too.. Love her voice! ^^ Okie.. DOLLS!! HERE I COME!! Tah everyone!! :D

-Let your creativity drive your day, and it will help you arrive at amusing places.-

MUGGING!!!

2008-05-05T01:22:00.002+08:00

Exams, exAMS, EXAMS!! GODDAMIT!! EXAMSS!!!

That's all that has been going through my head these few days.

Right, I haven't updated for quite some time. Please, don't blame me. It's the Mid-years, which suck.

I had my A-math, SS, Geog, Chinese, English and Physic papers. Gonna have E-math tomorrow and Chinese Listening Comprehension. Seriously, I've screwed my past papers. Gotta make sure that I do well for the next one.

With that, I think I better get going.. Oh, let me just tell you about the highlights since the past 10 days.

1. I started tuition with a part-time student named Chrystal with Alfreda.
They always come to my place for sessions.
2. I got to know new friends.
Well, not really. They're Sherman's, don't really know but there's one that we know named Kin Weng. Another named Anthony.
3. ShinHwa's 9th Jib is out. I paid for my Normal Edition but have not collected it. Planning to buy the Special Edition too. Ah, just what the heck :P
4. I've got my first pay receipt!! HEHE :D The pay cheque's coming up ^^
5. Had just played Bball again 2 days ago. After such a long period of time!
6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC! :) 22nd April
7. Just bought Vanish Power O2! Wonder if it works =/
8. My mum came one day and shocked Alfreda and I. Lol. She was so happy XD Cute.. But my mum went back home a few days later. So fast!
9. GOD!! Just now.. 3 cockroaches were in my house!!!
One FRIGGIN BIG!! I swear!! O_O And they fly!! SHEITNESS!!
KW and Jenny came to my rescue!! GOD!! The princess and knight in shining dress and shining armor!!
10. Oh yeah, Sher, Jen, KW, Sammy, Mir and I stayed up the whole night last night XD HAUHAUHA.

Well, yeah, So that's about it? And you probably know about the first point already anyway.. Okay, good night everyone! Wish me the best of luck for tomorrow's papers!! :)

-Tired Of Something? Get Away From It And Think Why.-

Lost it T_T

2008-04-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD!! I'm really sad right now..

Alfreda came here just now. First and foremost I shall just tell you guys what happened on the 18th.

It was a Friday and I had work. From 6 till 2 AM. I told Henry that I could not work on Saturday. He was pissed. I can totally understand why. It's my fault, I apologize. Alfreda came over to my house too. Haha! God, my house is like totally her house now! ^^ We had tuition and sang songs after that. She taught me how to sing! :D alright, teaching does not mean getting pitch-perfect or melodious. It refers to you being into the song. Really worked - like wonders!

She also ate at Xin Wang.. Introduced Fried rice with salted fish. The last time I ate it, it was good. So happen that I wasn't appetising on that day.. I am so freaking sorry! I didn't know that it'll taste that bad!

Alright. Moving on, on Saturday. The reason I didn't go to work was because of a BBQ. Actually, I was only planning to go for the St Theresa thing which starts in the morning and ends at about 4PM. Turned out that there was a BBQ party from Amanda's church. So, I cancelled my work. Alfreda's gonna be there too. Can't really blame me, right? It's a once in a lifetime - well, blue moon - event and joining a preach once in a while may be more worthwhile then just working for the bucks, no? I hope so x_x

Umm.. Met lots of Amanda's church friends. Guess who I saw? JOASH -_- yeah man, that guy from school. The one from class. Gosh, stop repeating it. It's him alright! LOL and many many of her friends.

OH! Did I tell you that I stayed up till morning on Friday? So I worked till 2 Am, right? And I continued to stay up all the way until 6+AM on Saturday. Sherman and Guang Wen and Jenny were here. Shoot. Was really unexpected and it was BAD. Bad service, bad everything.

Back on Saturday. Met IAN ANG SI JUN!!! AND NIGER ANG YI DONG!!!! Okay, it's been sooo soo SO long since we met so I hope that I still got their names right ^^;; Haha. And we had this game where you're just supposed to look at somebody when the music stops and make sure that you did not make eye contacts. The ones who did must shout. Ian emerged the winner.. And the reward was that he earned the rights to take the food first. His reply was "But I'm serving" HAUHAHA!! ROFL!!! XD SUPER CUTE AND FUNNY!!

And I'm so sorry, Niger.. Dropped you food real bad.

After that, Sunday comes by. Another session of Mandarin and math tuition. Was super tired, I have no idea why. Woke up at 9 plus. Thought it was perfect but maybe a lil more rest could do the trick. slept and woke up again at about 10 plus. Had no idea why and how but I dozed off again. Was totally out of my bed only when it was 11 going to 12. SHEIT! Then it hit my that my tuition was coming. Was rather tired during Mandarin tuition, again, with no knowledge why.

Pulled off during math. Ah, Shen lao shi was so nice. She bought me brunch! Hor Fun.. And she helped me make coffee. :) Had some of Crystal's cookies ^^;; sorry and thank you!! Math is a dang killer! Have been doing a-math. Wonder when we'll touch e-math. This is harder than I've ever thought it could be!

OH YESH! Again, I forgot to add something that happened on Friday. This is the reason why I wrote that I'm sad on my FIRST line. Okay, here's the deal. I had work on Friday, remember? Have been busy these few days too. Had no time to really do a good cleaning up and packing in my house. It was a total mess. Screaming for help at that point of time..

My screams were heard! An angel was sent with an assistant, in fact. Guess who's the person? Yes! None other than Alfreda!! The assistant? Jasper, lol. Barely even know him! Thanks man! You guys!! Seriously, I had the urge to take pictures of my WHOLE ENTIRE cleaned up house! Just didn't have the energy to. Plus, the guys were here. Sad.

Now, Alfreda left a message on my table. She wrote about how she cleaned up my house, how much dust I've collected in my sanctuary. Practically, how messy my whole ship is. And how Jasper actually cleaned up my books and table. He even put back the boxes. GOSH! Amazing, really!

Did I tell you how much I love love love that piece of paper? Just some 300 words on a piece of foolscap paper, which I bet, came from my own foolscapfolder. It was just so freaking sweet! I thought of scanning it and save it for the rest of my life. Right, I know. I am so messy I would probably lose it within weeks - forget about years. But I thought that by scanning it in, at least I'll have a soft copy of it! That's the important thing! AND THIS IS THE SAD PART.

I swear, it was there on that very table last night. Still there early in the morning. Still there when I had my chinese tuition, still there when we had math tuition. It was even still there when we finished our math tuition. SUDDENLY, it's gone!! I DON'T KNOW!! It's gone when Alfreda went home!! Or at least that was the time that I realised it was missing. Like as though the wind blew it away as Alfreda left my house. I'm SAD!! SUPER SAD!!

Someone PLEASE help me.. I really can't find it right now. I hope that I've just slipped it in somewhere just like how I always slip things everywhere and thought that I've "lost" them. You know, I've been very careless. And I hope that this is just another careless mistakes of mine!! :(

Okay, moving on from that, Alfreda and I caught hottie and Nottie on the cinemas yesterday. Must have been the reason why I'm beat today. It was nice :) Nice than Definitely, Maybe, I'd say. Why? Cause I think that it wasn't too late for the guy - he made the right decision.

For the guy in Definitely, Maybe, however, I thought that he was late.. He had a wife and a child. Nothing's ever too late, people say. But seriously, a family is just ruined by that. This cause Alfreda and I to have a "conflict". God, seriously, we were like
"*beep* you *beeeep*!
"No, "*beep* you! You *beep!*"
"Oh please! It's 12AM already! Spare me from your nonsence! Don't be such a *beep!*"
"*Beep!*"
"*BEEEEPPPP!*"
"*BEEEEEPPP*"
Alright, and it went on and on forever. all the cencored words. We were shouting, by the way. And we were seating at Gloria Jean's Coffee. Such a nice coffee but they had us to just ruin the heck out of it. HAH! The customers actually turned their heads to face us! Amazing!

Oh yeah, on that day met Quan, Mir, Leslie, Larry and Angel. I guess that's it for that day. Oh, and messaged Joe. Lol. Pranked him. Made a scenario like as though Alfreda and I were fighting. HAHA! Cuteness.

Shawn and him came down today. At about 9.45. Was so funny. Sweet too. Thanks man :) HAPPY BELATED APRIL FOOL'S DAY! I seriously don't know why we fooled you two. It was fun! ^^ For fun, joy, peace and laughter! And I'm so sorry that the two of you got into trouble.. And yes, I don't really encourage fickle-mindedness.. So, yeah. And please do think of the words that you are going to say next time ya :)

Right, so I guess that's it? Gotta go sleep now.. And bathe, gosh I feel so smelly! Haven't done my homework too. Someone, seriously, save me!! X.X

-It's Better To Be Late Than Never.-

Mugging for Chinese

2008-04-17T23:12:00.002+08:00

Okay, god! I am soo so so SORRY! I said that I was going to update another post yesterday. Turned out that I did not. I didn't have a quote of the day!! Shucks! And yesh, you waited Shawn.. Here's an update anyway :) teehee!

Alright, first of all, I read a fan-fiction yesterday night. Well, you know, I used to be such a fanfic addict. It's addictive, really. If you like reading and is in LOVE with some artist(es), you should try it. If you read those written by good writers, I can assure that you'll get hooked on. Sometimes, there are some that are really surprising. Just got you so engrossed into the outcome of the story and some really describes super well.

Frankly speaking, I think that they're the starters of my passion for English Literature. Amazing, huh? Others would say that they read books or heard stories, etceteras, but guess what's my inspiration?! ONLINE FORUMS!! HUAHAUAH!! XD

So, who says that internet does more harm than good? Who says that going into forums is just a waste of time? WHO says that it will not improve any of your attributes? It seriously did improve mine! :D

Haha.. Anyway, I went down at 6 yesterday, right? For my work. I thought that my work starts at the same timing, as always. Guess what? I was not supposed to go that early -_-. I was supposed to come in at 7 PM!! How.. Dumb. HAHA!

But, I'd have to say that such ironic coincidences happen not only for the sake of happening, but also for a purpose. It just so happen that my mother called me at 9.30 PM. I was supposed to work till 11PM if I came at 7. THANKFULLY, I came earlier and that helped me a lot! I could rush hope at the stroke of 10.

And then, drama starts. I told my dad that I was just downstairs - the truth - and told him that I could reach home anytime soon, if he don't believer me. Guess what? He wanted me to reach home within 5. What happened next was like a scene caught on a drama! I actually ran up.. Across the swimming pool, with everyone looking at me and finally up into my home sweet home. LOL. Running in the middle of the night, with red and black, how perfect!

So, yeah. That's about all. Oh, did I ever tell you guys about how much I LOVE literature? I think that literature is cool. So expressive.. Profound at times too. I hope that answers parts of your questions :) I know that some of you ARE wondering about my past entries. The poems that I wrote, what I meant when I said this or when I said that, no? Hehe. I know I have something for you to ponder about XD teehee!!

-Lie Is a Bad Solution.-

-If You Think That You're So Good;

Think Again.-

Feminine!!

2008-04-16T17:50:00.002+08:00

Guess what! It's minutes before worktime and here I am blogging! Haha.. Anyway, the thing is, I went out with Alfreda yesterday!! And we had fun.. Except for some unfortunate events, but anyways, the coolest ever is about to be revealed!!

I, CINDY CLARISSA ADRIAAN, ACTUALLY LOOKED FEMININE!!

No, I'm not joking. I'm so shocked myself!! So was Alfreda! XD HAHA! I have the photos in my phone.. As always, haven't uploaded them ^^;; Will do so later on ya.. For now, tah tahh~~ Work here I come!!

2008-04-15T01:04:00.002+08:00

Have been hanging out lately. :) It's fun! Such a long long time since I did so..

However, I still feel that I'm a spoiler.
I'm sorry, I can't help it.
I'm sorry, if I'm a poiler.
I'm sorry, if my presence is such a threat.
I'm sorry, if all that I've been doing is harm.
I'm sorry, I really am.

Maybe I should just stop it. It's not only once, or twice, after all. It's been like that. I've no idea why. Maybe, just maybe, I'm reading just too much into it. Will there be any signs?

After all, my definition of things are different from yours.
Mine, however, is mostly agreed by many.
But I won't, and will never, put differences forth.
Friends are there for each other no matter what. Unless, mishaps happen. In that case, mourn, I shall.

Anyway, English lesson was spent with Ms Tan back in class - getting us on with debates. Gosh, it's like The Arena coming into class! Haha.. The motion? "Are parents responsible for crimes commited by their children?" And that reminds me! I'm supposed to watch The Arena!! Today, riught? Lol.. I am SO dead.. Nah.. Shall find some way out XP

Umm.. Studied at the Bukit Merah Library just now after band. Was so tired but it was quite fruitful, I have to say. Practised Mandarin. Gosh! I just suck at it to the core.

On Sunday the 13th, I stayed at home the whole day. Wanted to go to Cold Storage and buy some drinks. Sadly, that didn't happen cause I practically snoozed half of the day. I've no clue why I did so. I was fresh in the morning. Cooked food for myself and watched TV.. The next thing I know, I just woke up from a slumber! O_O

On the 12th, we went out again. Went to Vivo. Had "free karaoke" haha. Played dare or dare, actually, and the loser had to sing. Sung Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie and the song sometimes finds its way into my mind at some points of time.

Met Li Gui, Mir, Alfreda, Soon Ji, Joel, Hong Kiet (new guy introed by Li Gui), Jenny, Caroline and Quan. Those were the people who I hanged out with for that day. Li Gui and Hong Kiet left earlier though. Had lots of fun playing water too XD

NOTE*! Soon Ji is such a dumb! XD He continously wet himself! Without his own knowledge, of course. He ran his way through the water! What do you expect? -.-

Anyway, we took quite a lot of pictures on that day. They're with Caroline and I haven't asked for any yet.

Alright, I've uploaded quite a number of pictures but are not ready to be posted yet, I'm sorry. It's going to be 2 in 40 minutes! I better turn in man! good night everyone!

-- OH YES, before I forget, Sorry CAROLINE.
The funny, hilarious, lovable and unique MC is ELLEN DEGENERES. Caps locked :) Really love her! although I spelt her name wrongly. Dude, mistakes DO happen, although I didn't mean them, I swear.

-Everything must happen in its own time --

because everyone has a different agenda.-

2008-04-12T02:25:00.002+08:00

OK! This is bad bad bad. Just bad. I just came back home and I was from Xin Wang. Was with Caroline there, eating our supper. 1 mango pudding, 1 mango sago with pomelo cream, 1 toasted bread with condensed milk and peanut butter and a cup of milo mixed with horlick. GOD!! SO DARN FATTENING, right?! -____- SHEIT.

Lol.. Just now Caroline dared me to ask Ah Lun about the boyfriend-girlfriend thing. Haha! She wanted to see his reaction. So, anyway, there you have it!

Ok, before that, I initially planned to go with Ardisa to the Tanjong Pagar MRT station to retrieve the Ez-link card back, and making a new Ez-link card for myself. However, all those were not done at the end of the day cuz we spent too much time deciding on what we should wear to match each other today. -_- Rubbish sheit man! Shouldn't have!! But hey, no regrets! Cuz it makes us have lots of fun together today ^^

Was with Ardisa, Amanda bestie, Li Gui, 2 new guys (Timothy and Andre) at Xin Wang. Ardisa was having her lunch while I grabbed a dessert and the rest of the guys talking and looking at us eat. Caroline was working and she was let off earlier for some reason. I have no idea what.

Then, the QSS guys went home and Carol, Disa and I went to Vivo. Alfreda bestie joined us :) And Carol played arcade with Freda. Disa and me went to PageOne. She wanted to buy some short story book. She saw this complete collection of romance series and thought of buying it but it costs a good 230 bucks! Of course, I searched for others and found this nice one. Figured there must be some series to it or some "sisterhood" books as well. True enough, we found some, but not all.

After seaching for some time, we agreed that maybe looking for the "librarian" would be an easier way out. When we're queueing up at the counter, Disa suddenly said "I think these books are the same as the collection just now." It then hit me that this might be true. So, we went back and checked. IT WAS TRUE. Goddammit! Just wasted a HELL lot of time!! Felt so stupid. HAHA!

After that, Disa had to go home. We went to buy movie tickets. Watched Definitely, maybe. It's not so bad, maybe you'd consider watching it. Well, the main character will be described as 'slut". HAHA! I'll give it a 6/10.. ^^;; cuz it's not exactly to my liking..

Alright, took some pictures and did I mention that Alfreda is a pro in faking an ah so?! Well, she IS! She was running like an old auntie all over Vivo City just now!! I'm positive!! Not joking or lying!! I've got some proves!! HAHAHA

Yepz.. Shall end here. Good night everyone! I have work tomorrow at 12PM!! X_X hope I can wake up!!! GAAHHH

Sorry Chenliana. Bener2 sorry. I didn't expect things to turn out this way, seirously.
Sorry Sherman. I didn't tell you about my changed schedule. Thank you sooo much!! Come again another time?? :D hehhe!!

-"What Is The Male Version Of Slut?"-

American Idol Gives Back

2008-04-11T00:45:00.002+08:00

Well, oh my God! It's already 12.45 and I'm supposed to be asleep! Or so was my plan.

The thing is, I took a bath and for who knows what reason, I became so fresh! I thought of doing other things, say, my homework or other assignments, but that'll make me so fatigue tomorrow if I don't rest enough at the end of it all.

So, I decided to update! :)
Just watched American Idol Gives Back just now. Love it! There was Allen Degenerous (can't spell her name properly ^^;;), Mariah Carey, the Hannah Montana girl (forgot her real name again ^^;;), and many many more. It was lovely. There was the Russian guy. Haha, hilarious!

Alright. As for my day, had Mandarin tuition just now. Given some letter writing format and words to remember. Real long but it can certainly help me. Should start memorizing it, man.

Talked to Amanda and Li Gui on the phone just now. Hmm.. Amazing. Haha. And Amanda wanna stay-over at my house!! If she can.. More surprises!!

Umm.. I'm also supposed to go to GESS tomorrow for their GALAnight. However, I am unable to cancel my work. The unfortunate thing is that Chenli has bought the tix! Two of them.. Can't seem to sell it to other people. I really hope that somebody will want to buy it.

2 Gang Eng Seng GALA night tickets for sale.

$10 each.

I feel so screwed up because of that. I know how it feels when somebody tells you that he is going to go and cancels. I am so sorry. I really am. I know that words can't do this justice but I sure hope that you will forgive me. How I wish they will accept refunds. Please, refund?? -.- sigh.

Okay, finally, I uploaded a picture!! Hehe.. That was on the 4th of March. Jenny smiles when she's suffering :D Everyone, REMEMBER THAT! And it's true! There was this once when she accidentally knocked her foot somewhere in my house. Instead of groaning in pain, she was laughing there like there was no tomorrow. Everyone who was aware of us were giving us THE look. HAHA! Ah.. Joel and I were bullying her in this picture, anyway - with out bags XD

Shall post all the other pictures soon ya.. :) good night!!

-Relationship Is Not Measured By Distance;

It Is Measured By The Heart.-

Shiet.

2008-04-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

Right. Sheits DO happen. Lost my key again. Thank god, nothing else was inside, other than some Rupiah and my DEAREST Elizabeth Arden. I can feel my lips crying out loud right now.. It's SO dry lately. I've no idea why!!

Anyway, I'll tell my mum about me losing EA, won't tell her about the key ^^;; I'm still home - safe and sound anyway. No reason for her to know, right? Will just add on to her stress. The locksmith costs 100!! But thank heavens, I got 10% discount. At least it ended up being 90 intead xD hehe!

Okay, bad news is, I'm broke now. Not a dollar with me. Dunno what to do. Tomorrow gotta rush home and that's it. Wonder how I'll eat in the canteen.

Anyway, I haven't updated for 2 days now, ya. Always wanted but didn't have the time. No photos up yet too.

The most amazing thing that happened was the when I ate 6 eggs together with Jen. SHEIT MAN! That's high CHOLESTROL! Not healthy! And I ate 4 the day before!! I still have 30+ more to finish up!! Within 24 hours! That's impossible! Even if I eat 1 every hour, I'll still have 6+ left!! -_-

Great job, Cin. You came from a third-world country as well. You know how hard the people there are living. Sigh.

Okay, nothing came into my mind about what happened anymore. Had work yesterday and today. Had my first Math tuition yesterday, on Tuesday. Fun and restlessly got the better of me after 2 hours ^^;; not a surprise. Was late for the tuition, by the way. Felt rather bad but the atmosphere was not intense. Hehe.. So.. I recovered kinda fast XD

Okay, haven't done homework. It's Wednesday.. Hope I can finish most of my homework already!! Can't wait for the weekends!! But there are still so many events on the weekends!! ARGH. Feel like cancelling them.. But also feel that I'll regret cancelling them =/ SHUCKS.

Somone, please. Enlighten me!!! X_X And Bernardkohkunxin! You read my blog too!! XDXD HAHAH amazinnggg!!

Okay, special message. HAPPY BITHDAY ANITA!!! :) did you receive my text??

-Someone, enlighten me, please.-

DIE

2008-04-07T01:55:00.003+08:00

Alright. I'm dead. Haven't done my homework assignments.

Long list of them. Done English correction though. Newspaper not done. Planned to do it since last week. Haven't done physics. Havent copied my A-math as well. Haven't ironed my clothes. That's it.

Good night everyone! Sigh. Sorry.. And I just can't understand some people. Period.

As said by my horoscope:

-"You are slowly learning how to manage a difficult person. You are taming a lion!"-

Met Anthony

2008-04-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

Right. Went to school today. Was so tired and actually planned not to go, after all, Jen and Mir didnt go as well. But nah.. The Thai people were supposed to come and I have a responsibility to take. Can't possibly just dump it aside.

Umm.. One disappointment.. The "group of Thailanese (Alfreda and Shao Wei scolded me saying they're just Thais -_-)" turned out to be represented by a man only. He was the conductor of the band there. Umm.. It's a music school, so u bet that they're standard is much HIGHER.

And ah.. I had plans today. Meetomg Amthony and going other places/ Was shocked actually cuz we were told that we had to stay back for drills. Alright, drills is important. However, the notice was so short I can'y possibly just cancel all my other appointments. They were the things that I have been looking forward for and planned out. Cancelling them will bring along bad mood as well..

Anyway, met Anthony and had lunch. Together with Shawn and Carol. Didn't manage to meet Jenny. She went off the moment I reached. It was a coincidence, really. The thing is, I pranked Carol on April Fools' and I pranked her just now too XD HAHA! Yeah man!! Anthon!! We're a great team!! ^o^

and umm.. Did I tell you about the time Soon Ji and I got scolded by this teacher, I don't know who she is, by the way. Soon ji was saying "I'm sorry" "sorry," "we're sorry" haha! Funny!!

Ahh.. And did I tell you that yesterday Quan apologized to Mir.. Made some banners showed it off at TBP. It was so sweet. Sad the reaction was not really a pleasant one ;;;;

After the lunch with Anthony, we went off to watch movie. It was Untraceable. Ok, this wasn't really in the plan. Super random but great show! Thriller.. Sadistic! Ouch.. How the guy died because of intense heat, Sulphur Acid and this liquid medicine. I forgot what it was. anyway, all of them died. Shucks! Thank god the girl survived before being chopped into pieces.

After the movie, accompanied Jenny for a while. She was sick.. Needed rest but didnt feel like going home. Went to the park where people played skate-boards. Chatted with her and went to Anita's house to return her her ID. Zu' Bat was there.

Talked and talked with Jen.. Unbelievable, indescribable.

Went to SAFRA after that. Played with Shao Wei, Alfreda and Joel. Thought more people were coming, guess I was wrong. Haha. But it was good! Played in pairs. The outcome?

Cindy - Alfreda : WINS
Cindy - Joel : LOSE
Cindy - Shao Wei : WINS

Yeah, so you should know who are our opponents. Fun fun fun!! ^^ Noob here!! Taught by Nooby teacher!! :D WINS!!! Hehehe..

I went home after that. Was at Xin Wang for awhile. Freda and SW were still with me. Guess who we saw? MARIE HO ELLIS. LOL!! With CAPS. She practically ran away from us.. She was aware that we were THERE. HUHUHAHAUAH!

Ate Subway for dinner. Went to the swimming pool after that and then Alfreda was sent home by her dad and SW took cab home. That's the end. OH! GUESS WHO I SAW AGAIN?! CALVIN!! Cicak's godbro -______- I THOUGHT HE WAS JOKING WHEN HE SAID THAT HE LIVED HERE TOO!! GAAAHHH

So anyway, Sorry Pretty.. and that's it for now ^^ good night!

-Meretricious, Contradictious, Superficial.-

Conflicts.

2008-04-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

Alright. I just read my entry yesterday. Haha.. It's cool!! I found no error XD so I wasn't really that high, eyh.Could still type and walk ^^ Umm.. Couldn't wake up just now. Not a surprise, though. What can I say? It was 4 after all! But I still went to school anyway :) See, I told you I'm a good girl!

Dad just called just now. Telling me that he can see the house from there -_- ya.. Kid's joke. There's nobody here man! I told him that and he didn't believe me.. Seriously, I'm very untrustworthy. People, don't ever trust me! Take this as a warning. Why did I damage myself? Cuz it's a fact! Even my OWN parents can't trust me. What makes you think that You can trust me, true?

Anyway, went to school with Leslie! Amazing xD Haha.. Well, yeah, Mir and Quan had a conflict. From what I heard, in Mir's point of view, all I can say is that he's jerk. Right, I've seen evidences as well but I'm not gonna say it out. I talked to him just now, he didn't tell me any of the things that I found. Quite a disappointment. But hey, since he's not gonna say anything, it's equivalent to I'm not supposed to know about anything too, right? So, I'll just shut up. He did this apology banner thing.

I have no comments. Umm.. Well, I can give one though. It's one word - Whatever. It's up to you as how you wanna define it but I have my own way :) did you define it the same say and I am defining it??

Ahh.. Let me tell you this. The colour combination suck, I know. Don't remind me. Lol. Went to Tiong just now. Met Many people there!! Sherman.. Pretty.. Alfreda and her friend - Shao Wei. Seems to be a nice fella ^^ Diso has been asking me out. I'm so sorry.. I've not been with you.. Why don't you join us tomorrow? :)

Just called Anthony. Haha! Oh yes, Shao Wei looks like Anth!! Serious!! I've no idea why I called him as well.. But well, I was reading bloggy so yeah ^^ Haha.. oh yeah, *ehem* REQUEST Poem or, at the very least, blog about me :P and TAG me!! XD

Jen!! Get well soon!! Carol too!! Glad we'll be going out together tomorrow ^^ Anth will be there too!! :D I think him joining us was supposed to be a surprise for me.. Cuz Jen and Carol didn't tell me XD LOL! And I ACCIDENTALLY found it out by accident.. And I called him at the right time!! Huahuahuah!!

Right, some update about me - Currently having a hurting throat. I think that it must've been because of yesterday's Sapphire Bombay -_- Thank god there's Difflam!! Haha.. Oh yeah, did I tell you that I felt like smacking someONE that time?? Haha.. It was just because of the fact that I know what it feels like to be framed or in such a situation.. It sucked. So yeah.. Haha! Nights everyone!! Shall end here..

-Should You Forgive Him?-

Wasted

2008-04-03T03:56:00.002+08:00

Godammit! Didn't plan this earlier on, SO unexpected. I was working.. From 6 and some things just happened. Conflicts. Had talks. Mir and Sherman visited me during my work today. I'm super sad. Carol and Jenny didn't manage to come. Jen was sick!! She's having FEVER right now, if I''m not wrong. Carol couldn't come down but that's alright. Many problems rising up.

Well, Mir told me her problems. That's cool. Anyway, after I knocked off, we went to my house. I bathed before I went to work. So, only Mir went to bathe. I browsed the net for a while and then I felt like drinking a lil. Mir said that she was meeting Thuya. I didn't really know the reason why but was told later on that they're gonna meet to drink. She invited me to join them. Thuya approved and, in fact, Eke was coming as well ^^ whee haha..

GOSH! Mir was so WASTED caps and bolded, dude! Right, I'm quite high myself right now.. Haha. Had dry gins. Wanted to tell Moniq.. Guess I left her too many messages already. DAMMIT!

Well, umm.. I don't do Dry Gins, seriously. Eke don't too. And it seems like Eke just did his girlfriend. Gosh, what the SHIT. She's pragnent?? Holy cow~~ I've no words to say man..

Anyway, that's it for now. I gotta go to school tomorrow man, shit. I wonder how it's gonna go. It's already 4 now and I'm not even sure if I can wake up.. Eke and Mir are gonna pont. Me and Thuya are trying our best not to.. Thuya!! FIGHTING!! :D hehe..

I wonder if there's any spelling mistakes here.. Gosh, I wonder what it feels like to be drunk xD hahaha!! Well, glad that I'm not though :P The dry gin just now was shappire.. 47%.. Did neat and mixed. It went well with Red Bull ^^ Haha, Thuya's DA man.

Alright, gotta go now. Nitez everyone!! ^^ Hope I can wake up.. Thanks Sher!! :)

-When there's a Will, there's a Way.-

April Fool's Day!

2008-04-02T01:04:00.003+08:00

Alright, I shall make this short and sweet. After blogging just now, I went into my room (while leaving computer on for downloads) and slept. So tired.. It was a nap actually, but I'll just say "sleep". After all, we do sleep for only 3 hours sometimes, no? So, woke up at 8.58PM or so and bathed, getting ready to go down and meet Carol. Promised her that I'll be down :D hehe!! Well, it was part of my plan for April Fool's Day!

Fact, I didn't really fool anyone today, neither did anyone really fooled me today. Haiz. It's been some time since I've been fooled and fooled someone, yeah. Missed the times I was in primary school and we used to fool each other upside-down. OH! And the best prank by Isnu, Eric and Jenny. Can never forget that. Lol. You guys are the best at it! Miss that ^o^

Umm.. So I told Carol that I wasn't going down anymore when I was actually right in front of the cafe already. She was shocked to see me when she walked to the front again. Haha! Cute.. Shaun told us that she suffered worse.. His friend called saying that he/she was at the police station and Shaun was already on his way down.. Turned out to be a prank! XD Teehee..

Withdrew allowance and went to Jen's and Carol's after she knocked off. Done homework and chatted. Didn't plan to come home so late. But it was alright, worthwhile. ^^ Glad I did so :D hee.. Oh yeah, I just feel that there's something wrong.. Somewhere. Can't put my fingers on it.. Sigh. Shall fine out soon ^^ Nitez everyone!! It's already 1 -_- GAAAHH!!

-Happy April Fool's Day!-

Pissed..

2008-04-01T18:29:00.007+08:00

Here it goes. I took this from Eeemaaanniieee's blog by the way XD And her answers are crazy :P check hers out yourself XD

1. Beer: Drink
2. McDonalds: Ronald McDonald (the statue mascot)
3. Relationships: boyfriend-girlfriend
4. Purple: Barney/gays
5. Power Rangers: HAHA red power ranges!! XD my cousin used
to love him so much!
6. Weed: smoking.
7. Steroids: swimming
8. Cartoons: spongebob squarepants
9. The President: US president Mr Bush
10. Tupperware: black.
11. Florida: America. Heat?
12. Santa Claus: Christmas
13. Halloween: pumpkin with face
14. Alice: POA -_- GODDAMIT!
15. Grammar: English.
16: Myspace: music/musicians/artists
17. Clowns: Heavy white make-up on face
18. Marriage: white cathedrals with bride and groom
19. Paris: ... Hilton! XD
20. Pussy: Pussycat Dolls~
21. Redheads: My mum ^^;;
22. Blondes: bimbo
23. Pass the: dutch (yeah~ same here! Iman answered this too)
24. One night stand: Well.. the 3-lettered words and westeners.
25. Donald Trump: RICH!
26. Neverland: peterpan
27. Dixie: pixies
28. Vanilla ice cream: ice-cream stores
29. Hooters: the restaurant at Clarke Quay.. The time I went there with Stephanie, Leslie, DKK
30. High school musical: that's it. The show.
31. Pyjamas: Bananas in PJs!! XDXD HUHAUHAUHA
32. Woody: woodpecker (uh-huh! Agreed again.)
33. Wet Socks: yucks. Stinks man!
35. Love: heart.
Okay, number 34 is gone??

Well, I wonder what I blogged about in the previous entry. Again, my internet connection is sort-of giving me problems. FREAK! Uh.. Kinda pissed off last night. The reason's pretty obvious. Planned to go home early and do my homework and revise. None of them came true. So tired. And I was fine already actually.. Was at the swimming pool. Jenny and Carol accompanied me. Sorry Freda and Shawn. Couldn't talk too long on the phone. My batt was seriously low. Up till this morning I was still fine.

However, to certain point of the day I became so tired again. And I just had to freakingly hear something unpleasant to my ears. My fate. I don't know why it was always MY FAULT. It has always been MY FAULT from the start. From the start till the end of time, it seems like everything will just be MY FAULT and never and ever changes. I'm fatigue; over everything. I thought, I could just trust and be happy throughout the day. I thought, things will just be that simple, as simple as things have always been. Guess I was wrong.

Adding on to my 'suffering', we had a shitty talk today. About emotional social whatever. I understand why you've been like that. Never ever listening to what people say. Never ever considering other people's feelings. Okay, that's a bit exaggerating. You did think about people's feelings. However, there was this philosophy that people tend to see a person's negative sides more than their positive sides. It is true. The fact is, I know that you are kind and etcetera. However, you think more about yourself compared to others and just be selfish and self-centred. And, your negative-sides seem to over-power your positive-side. Those who are kind may often be mistaken as unkind. What's more a person who's negative-ness over-powers his positive-ness.

I guess I'll just end this here first. Just finished my tuition. Had tests. A-math and Chemistry. I guess I'll fail them both. No, I'm not proud of this fact, mind you. It bothers me but humans just have to move on with life, no? No use crying. Well, crying helps but of course crying while thinking about what we're gonna do next :)

Hey, thanks Sher! For calling me. ^^ It helps a LOT. Haha.. And also for coming yesterday.. It was just a joke XD Umm.. April Fool Eve's prank? XD kekeke!! And now I know that Edogawa is not such a nice place to eat in ^^ whee~~ Thanks to you too :D hehe.. Ooohhh LESBONG!!! HAHA MY love! XD

Here's a quote from my form teacher when I was in Sec 1:

"This world is not only about yourself.

If it is, then do whatever you want, by all means, but sadly, it's not.

So think about it."

2008-03-31T01:37:00.004+08:00

Alright. You know what? It's freakishly LATE right now! I "studied" just now. Tried to do my homework. Done my newspaper articles but not the others, I'm afraid. Sheit! Just can't seem to get things right. I shall try my straighten things up from this week onwards. I started off fine, so I don't believe that I can't make it anymore. Shall have faith in myself.

Okay, updates! Umm.. Did I tell you guys that about my manager thing.. I was wrong? He just wasn't there at that point of time. Anyway, that's not the important part. Well, I found out that there are 2 guys who are Indonesians as well. Haha. Umm.. Found out the truth behind the scenes. Not only about the making of desserts. But also about the movement of manpower. ^^;;

I'm so dead. So late. Anyway, another important thing. I was browing through the 6A '05 bulletin board. It's AMAZING I swear! God, Yu Jia and the gang! You guys are just indescribable!! There's the claps.. Photos.. And Plegde!! AH! How could anyone EVER forget the 6A pledge!! ^^ I really wanna show you guys.. I did write before saying that I'll show pictures but that day never seem to come. Like this sentence that was said by my bestie's teacher "tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow. Today never comes, tomorrow never comes." Haha! It is freaking funny, but there are some truth in it too ^^; I'M a living example.

Okay, Umm.. I just did my laundry today. I'm such a screwed up! Shall go and iron my clothes now ^^;; cya guys!! Hehehe!! Love! ♥♥♥

Okay. I've actually posted this entry moments ago, but I suddenly remembered something. I was studying just now with Caroline, and Jenny came along for a few minutes, and I promised her that I'll write about THE new word that I just learnt today. It'll be in my mind man! Well, hopefully, if not thanks to my short-term memory. Well, the word is "meretricious" a pretty convenient word. But I don't like how the internet dictionary interprets this word. So, yeah. Just for your info, I'm not defining it as how the internet is. Wanna know the real meaning? Check the thick, big book of dictionary ^^ Alright.. Ciao!!

-"Today Never Comes, Tomorrow Never Comes."-

Treat!! :D

2008-03-27T23:09:00.008+08:00

Hey everyone! It's like I'm soo haappyy!! Well, today I have no work. I was supposed to go to Xin Wang and study. However, Carol cancelled her work today and so I changed my plans too. Had band today. Was so DANG tiring. Carried percussion instruments up and down, as usual. Played Lemon Tree and Legend of the Eagles. Love the second piece ^^ The first is just too tiring and it gets boring after a while.

Had our English Essay Test today o.o BAD. That's it. I've no idea why but lately, let's put it as eversince I stepped I feet into HSS, I have been deproving in almost everything that I do. My essays are getting from bad to worse and I always go out of point!! Just hope that this time round, it's fine.

After band, went to BMC. Met Quan and Mir there. Alfreda then came after I finished my McFlurry and Joel came moments after Alfreda. Thought that we'll just go somewhere to hang for a while. Turn out that we went to GW and collected Mir's spects too before heading off to this Japanese restaurant.. Joe's TREAT. :D

So glad that I came along XP Man! I sound like a money-faced person!! -_- Grrr. Whatever it is, I'm not but if you think that way, I won't blame you. Maybe being money-minded is not that bad after all ^^ But of course, everything has to be moderated! Not too much or well, yeah, you know.

Kay kay, shall end my entry here. Darryl bro! You read my blog too?? Oooohh!! Hey, if there's any silent readers out there, don't be silent please!! Post at the shoutbox!! ^^ hehe.. And thanks ya Darryl! You're the best bro ever!! ^^

Oh ya! I found Chihiro Onitsuka's Infection translation :

‘Somehow, I have to answer back,’

With that, my tongue grows thick with weeds

A shadow passes through one more person’s heart

And strips off her mask

An explosion has ripped apart

The shattered fragments of my heart

And although now all I see

Are glittering lights all around me

When, I wonder,

did I become this weak?

My legs are cramped, but

Pretending not to notice, I go on

This foolish disease of mine

Seems only to get worse and worse

An explosion has ripped apart

The shattered fragments of my heart

And although now all I see

Are glittering lights all around me

When, I wonder,did

I become this weak?

Growing more and more to fear

Every little fever that comes along

I may have little chance

But, still, I must wake up

An explosion has ripped apart

The shattered fragments of my heart

And although now all I see

Are glittering lights all around me

When, I wonder,

did I become this weak?

An explosion has ripped apart

the shattered fragments of my heart

Fragments... fragments... all around me

When, I wonder

did I become

this weak?

Okay, you know what? I'm the type of person who believe that when something happens or if something is just stuck in your mind/heart, it must have meant something. This was the reason why I searched for the translation of this song. True enough, there is a meaning to it and now I understand why it is so stuck in my mind... ^^

-When, I Wonder, Did I Become So Weak?-

I'm jealous!

2008-03-27T00:02:00.003+08:00

Well, yes. I'm jealous! SUPER jealous!! Haha.. Nah. Just joking. But hey! I really am!!! *pouts* xD

Well, I'm jealous cuz all my friends are SO populer.. But hey, I'm jealous of them cuz they're my friends! And as I've said before.. I'm proud to say that my friends are the hottest dang things going on! Haha.. That contradicts everything! XD

Right.. Anyway, why did I suddenly say this?? Okay, Alfreda, my bestie for hundreds of years just met this friend of mine and in a split second, they're together!! God!! And this friend of MINE chooses Alfreda over everyone else!! Hmph!!! And Alfreda is there smiling. Don't you deny that!! XP XP

Okay, I'm jealous cuz I've known her longer and he've known me longer but they messaged each other more than they messaged me!! GAAAHH
Haha!! Another one!!

Carol!! My babe!! So many guys are chasing after you!! Gosh!! What.. Yu Hong?? Willy?? Glenn!! And the newest OF the newest Ah Lun!!! O_O Holy crapp!! And and and.. I think there's also another person!! At the very least there's another one!! I just can't really put my fingers on who that guy is!! I know there is another!! WHOO HOO!!

Gosh!! Okay, the other people who are also ON-demand like hotcakes are Miranda, Jenny, Mimi, Stephanie, Ardisa, Shawn, Joel, MY SISTERS, Soon Ji, Steffi, Sarah YEO, Yi Si, Darryl Mok, Amanda, Iman, Lovely, aiyah!! Just name them all!! EVEN ISNU!! (Lol not trying to put you in a spot there, babe ^^;;)

Argh! This is insane! They are driving me out of my sanity! It's like ALL of them are!! They're leaving me on the shelf!! Well, in illustration, it's like as though they're waving their hands off in the air with their backs facing me and their other-half by their sides, and I was there left with a white hanky in my hands, waving at them. -_-

You know what? I'm gonna make sure that I grow sexy one day and leave the shelf with you guys :P muahahahha!! (Right, something is wrong with me XD)

Okay, so with all those said, I guess you could have already guessed what happened today during work XD HAHA!! Yesh, Carol was.. Let's put it as admired by one of the "seniors" XD haha!

Oh oh! And and.. Ooohh.. I was taught about the way we're supposed to wear our uniform, the time for breaks, the beancurd thingy, and many many other things today.. *silence* thought that I was quite alright already (as in I'm already on the right path, on the way to the shining end at the end of the dark dark tunnel. However, I was wrong.)

So yeah, thanks Mir, Soon Ji, Shawn and Jenny for today!! ^^ Teehee~~ So sorry for not being there, totally. :) Nitez everyone!! ^^

-Words convey feelings, but there is nothing like human contact to make a connection.-

2008-03-26T00:13:00.003+08:00

OK! YOU KNOW WAD?! I'M SO FREAKIN SHOCKED RIGHT NOW!! I just went over to Carol's bloggy and read her entries.. OH GOD! In her picture.. I saw a girl having her birthday party and she looked familiar, although I'm not sure who she is. BUT the next thing that I saw really shocked me to HELL. I saw SHERLY!! YESH!! SHERLY!!! In the picture as well!! They know each other?! OOoohh if they REALLY do, then it means that Sherly is actually connected to me by another person too - other than Stephaphy!! XD HAHAHAH!! GOSH!! SHOCKED!!! :D:D:D