I would want to live longer...


Hihi! It's been long! My mum came here for couples of days. She just went back hours ago. Let's rewind and look back on the days :)


Went to the airport to receive the artistes. Been 2 years! Well yeah, usually they come every two years anyway. XD So, I was with Phyone first. We went to Square2 (didn't know where the hell this place is at first), figured our way there, got my beautiful posters and we had our dinner together too! ^^ We ate at a Korean restaurant! :)

There was this funny incident when the waiter kept talking to me in Korean, and I could not help but to reply him in Korean too. Of course, it was not on purpose. The words just came out of my mouth automatically! Then, I realised and I was embarrassed, kinda. x.x

It was fun catching up with her about the things that we have missed out on. So yeah, that was the reason why we were late. On other occassions, I may be quite cranky but this time, it was all worthwhile ^^

Anyway, we got to the airport before they arrived. However, DOZENS of fans (girls AND boys) were already crowding the area. I couldn't get to my friends and was standing at the opposite side of the barricades.

When I realised that all the Changjos were on the other side, I started wondering whose side was I on? I mean, I saw all Andy, JunJin, VOS, 2PM and ShinHwa fans on the other side. I also realised that there were LOADS of guys on my side. True enough, minutes later, super huge signs of WONDER GIRLS went up! O_O gosshh!!

I was sooo frantic! Cause there were reporters and camerman around! They were capturing the Changjos and Wondergirls' fans! Having the posters in my hand, I quickly unrolled JunJin's and started shouting "JUNJIN!!!!" Haha! I was like a lost JJ fan trying to fight for my rights! XD

YEP!! The cameraman saw me! Just then, my friend texted me and it read "JunJin's flight is at 1AM!" O_O Whhaaatt?? I quickly rolled JJ's poster and switched it with Andy's! Haha! And I started shouting Andy although I was there for JunJin! XD

Also, I received a text from my friend not long later saying "Wonder girls are arriving tomorrow." This surprised me a lot! I mean, all the wonder girls' fans were practically screaming for no reason then! Cause their artistes were not even gonna walk through that door!! HAH!

Then Phyone had to go home and I waited till about 3AM plus. We did lots of crazy things together while waiting for JunJin. :) Can never forget the dances! XD


It was the concert day. Totally awesome! The U-Kiss crew waved to Appa and I :) Awesome! BUT I didn't feel that connection with JunJin this time around. :( Is it because of the bad timing or is it just not there anymore? Sigh.

Phyone and Yue Ning were sitting together. Found out that Siska went for the concert too! ^^ Whoo! Bina and ce Beatrice also went! ^^ Awesome!! :)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MONJI KUDA-OPPA!!!
:) Be prettier, be fatter and happier!
Quickly find a job so that you can pamper me more and love me forever more! ^^ <3

My mother came on this day, the day that I was supposed to go to the airport to send JunJin too. Sighs, the bonding seems to be really gone. It's time to come to reality now :) Thought we were that close. Not anymore, eyh?

Oh yes, and bro just had to break it to me that he met Oline -___- trying to make me jealous!! GAAAHH!!! :( BOOOOOOO


We had a BBQ party! :D Yeyy!! Oh, heard of TGIF before? Yeah, sure. TGIF!! However, for that week alone, it became ONIF! Peng bro catch fast XD Hahas! Oh No, It's Friday! Firstly, we had to choose between the BBQ or cell group. I got Caroline to come with me. It wasn't all so bad till things happen. She slipped into the pool, spoiling her precious handphone. As for me, well, shits just happen. 'Nuff said!

Oh! Bernard darling and Co went for it :) Sad, I didn't go!


Joined Oline for service. I was never allowed to go for Chistian activities. I know, I understand. I'll just go this time around, again, because I've made a promise. Promises are to be kept till the very last straw when you really can keep it no more.

Glad to say that I won one bet. However, she won the other bet. Verdict: No treatings needed -_- Hey! I really want her to do it, you know! Will make my life lighter! ^^ Yeah, I finally understand how you feel XD Okay, not really a hundred percent :P


I've been out of my house the past few days and so I decided that I should stay at home. Yep! I said it, I made a promise to myself and I proudly did it! Told ya so! When I mean it, I do it! I'm sorry if I reject any invitations too, though. I just need to stop myself from going overboard.


So, I was actually planning to stay at home the whole day, again. Guess it didn't work out because of a call. A stupid call!

Caroline was on the other line. She was telling me about a birthday surprise that the cell group was having for this birthday girl. They held it at West Coast, which apparently, is not very far from my house. Although sadly, I do not know the way there.

At first, I rejected, but she got China to go on the phone and they both talked me into going. On the way there, I felt rather bothered because I had the bad vibes that I'll lose my way somehow!

True enough, I did. Well, not lost my way, but I missed my bus-stop. The whole event was pretty fun. Those crazy guys! Oh, did I mention that I was greeted with an ugly sight? Yeah. This guy called Daniel had fallen into the water and he sprained his ankle pretty badly. Wayne had to drive him off. Talk about greetings!

Had pizza and the cake. We surprised her by lining up in two rows with sparkles in our hands. She was pretty happy but you could see from her face that she pretty much expected those already. Awww~ :(

Played balloons for the rest of the time ^^

OH YEAH!! I DON'T THINK i MENTIONED THIS BEFORE, BUT i SHOULD!! I have to! I FINALLY WATCHED THE VIDEO WHERE CAROLINE AND I WERE PLAYING THE STUPID APPLE GAME. IT WAS horrendous!I SWEAR! SHE WAS PRACTICALLY screaming HER headoff! I am not joking! She was MAD!! O_O Yeah..

So, Line, if the guy that you like actually ran away from you, I wouldn't blame him that much XD haha~! Joking

Ok deh, rasanya skg gw udah gak bakalan demen ama KW sama skali! And hmm.. Dia ama Jen juga kyknya udah rada gak mungkin =/ Well, his feelings for her will still be there. But about her towards him.. Rada menurun ;;
About Line, sebenarnya rada rendah jg.. Y_Y


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Hihi!! :) Updaaattee!! Woo hoo!

So, today I brought Bernard darling, Dom, Shawn and Jian Wen to meet E406 XD Yeah sure, I'm not really that much of a church go-er but hey, why not, right? :)

It was pretty tough though, just now, cause I had three groups of friends mixed together XD Well, yeah. Now I do understand why people said that it was not really a great idea to join your group of friends together =/

Anyway, at first, I was pretty afraid that Bernard & co. will feel left out or uncomfortable as, knowing them, they won't talk to people unless approached first. Thank God, Wayne & co. were super chatty and chatted with them the whole time ^^ Phew! Haha! :)

Glad you guys were alright with it ^^ And yes, please, do not go there for *ehem* -____-

Next up! Happy news too! :D Seems like I've secured myself a pair of tickets! ^^ Woo hoo!! However, the tickets are still not mine yet at the moment *sweats* I am pretty disappointed too because of the fact that I actually found extra pairs for my friend at cheaper and reasonable prices and even confirmed with the seller about buying them. I sounded so sure but I was wrong.

Yeah, turned out that my friend actually went hunting herself during that time =/ So yeah, she pretty much found her own pairs and cancelled the offers that I found. x.x Feeling really really bad right now! Arrgghh!! I know how it feels to be the seller that got cancelled on!! GAAHH!!

Anyway, in compensation, I shall blog this up. People, if you're looking for tickets please tell me! Do contact me through my e-mail. State that it's regarding the K-pop tickets :) Thank you!! ^^ Haha! I'm not joking by the way, if you're really in need of the tickets, do e-mail me :) I'll be more than glad to help! Here are the infos:

Time: 4 November 2008
Venue: Singapore Indoor Stadium
Tickets availability:
Email me or hunt for them. They're not sold through any agents as usual.I also suggest you go to Coolsmurf Domain (you can see my other email at comment #430 too)
Artistes performing:
Wonder Girls, Chae Yeon, Andy, Jun Jin, V.O.S, Jewelry, U-Kiss, 2PM and Kim Jong Wook

Awesome! Awesome! Anyway, gotta sleep now! ^^ Good night everyone~~! :)


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Hey hey! Happy Halloween everyone! Had fun? Well, went to the party. Was really last minute but I went being emo-gothic. Glad it worked out! ^^ Sure, my make-up was smudged after some time but it was alright, it was alright. However, I do look unexpectedly ugly in some pictures x.x sheit! Haha! :D

Peng became a witch, who was said to have hair like noodles XD,
Wayne became.. WILLY WONKA!! :D WHEEE SWEEETT!! CHOCCCCSS!! KEKEKEKE,
Kiat Guan and Lionel wore a ghost mask each,
Chris became L-desu!! XDXD haha!! Hai hai~ It's the L up there XD
Shi Min had bloody face, bloody shirt and she lost her baby. COOL!
So yeah, there were some that became pirates, japanese school girls, belly dancer, batman, etc etc.

Caroline became a Japanese school girl too. Our initial plan was for her to be a raped school girl while me an emo-goth who commited suicide. So yeah, her raped word was cancelled and my commited suicide was cancelled too XD sad.

Anyway, went with a 3 inches heels today. It was pretty fine actually. Then, we started running, dancing and my leg hurt T_T God! Finally I understood what girls meant when they said that their feet hurt T___T but it's alright.. Good experience for the future!! ^^ Whoo hoo!! Heheheh

Did my hair too. It was nice at first but yeah, it flatened again because Carol was pulling on my hair thanks to the apple game -_- bloody.lame. Why did you have to do that?? GAAHH!! Rough woman!!

By the way, did I mention that I made Mandy wait for me outside the YMCA building for VERY long? Yes, I did! Felt DAMN BAD!! X_X She didn't actually go in first.. HUIKZZ!!

Oh yes, and why the late-ness and rush? Haha! Well, Cause umm.. I had to find things and I was figuring out where my handphone and wallet went to. Was also thinking on the shoes that I should wear (before deciding on the 3 inches heels.)

Went to accompany Kinny too. He needed to buy a present for his mom. It's her birthday.. Today! Haha! :D Awesome!! ^^ We wen to Plaza Singapura for it. Yes, it's goddam far and I was kinda disappointed, actually. I was hoping that we'll meet *ehem* but we didn't anyways. So yeah, sorry Kinny! X.X

But no worries! All in all, today was fun! :) I celebrated Mimi's birthday before going for the party too! ^^ Whee~~ Very happy now! :D YEY!!!

HAPPY BIRHTDAY MIMI!!!!
Hehe! Hope you had a fun day! And I'm so sorry that I couldn't spend the day with you X(
Hope all your wishes come true too! :D

Alright, let's get down to business now.

Hey, young lady! I don't know what's going on with your head, with your mind, or with yourself. You did not tell a single thing.
Now you hurt yourself, why did you? What's the point? We've talked about this many many times before.
You've moved on! Don't let yourself fall back to that old you!
I don't give a shit if you wanna smoke or drink or club. Do whatever you like but don't do stupid things like that!
You know very well how I look at that thing. You know very well about how much I hate them.
Yeah sure, I may not be with you for 24/7, but it's the trust and faith.

Yes you have problems, I do too.
Yea, sure, you have woes.
But who doesn't?
We gotta fight them together.

Anyway, here's a song I'm dedicating to you. Listen!


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Alright, I've not been updating for so long. I've gotten back my report book. Good news: I'm proudly promoted :) Bad news: Well, I did very badly overall. Definitely capable of doing better.

So, our school ended and Mrs Yeo is going to leave us. We had a concert for her, didn't seat through it. I wanted to, though. Sadly, didn't. Heard that it was kinda lame from some and others said that it was not bad. Whatever it is, at least I have a rough idea on what happened. :)

Met the casts backstage and yes, that's because I was a backstage crew too. Bad bad day, I tell ya. Was screamed at like nobody's business, treated like a dog and bad-mouthed. All done right in front of my damn bloody face.

Anyhow, It doesn't matter no more. The past is the past :) And I abide by all those just because of the sad fact that I am still a student, a kid and that my results and everything else is controlled by others.

Let's see.. 10 days have passed and dozens of things has happened. Can't re-tell all one-by-one, though. The O level kids are still in the midst of their war. There's still two more weeks to go!! Fighting!!! You're half-way through!!!

And yes, I've not been hanging with Joel & co. for super duper long, have not been with Caroline, 5Ns & co. for almost a month. Really damn long. What happened? Before I knew it, I've become a social butterfly again -____- sighs.

Currently, I'm still hunting for the K-POP CONCERT TICKETS. Hopefully I'll be able to go, ohmigosh..

Hmm.. And it's been very long since I last talked to Mr Lim too! Haha! :D Still as crazy as ever! Still kiddish! XD Wanted to meet during Deepavali but ended up not meeting up :( And it was a rainy Deepavali, gosh. What's more, Izzati couldn't make it anyways =/ So, what happened to poor Cindy? She stayed at home and gambled XD LOL!! Joking~

Was really at home and I played Mahjong and poker XD HAHA! Did super badly for the first day but everything changes on the second day! :D Wheeee!! Beginners just need some training and you'll be SUPER shocked at what we have in store! :D

And coming up, it's Halloween! How are you guys preparing?? Are you guys gonna celebrate it?? I've always wanted to celebrate Halloween. So I thought this year I would too. Surprisingly, I am rather adamant about it right now.. For some reason.

Then, Caroline invited me to a party that she's gonna have with the guys. I agreed to go. Thing is, everyone has to dress up. Wondering what I'm gonna be. I sort of have an idea already. Wonder if it'll work. And am glad that I spent my day yesterday with Carol :)

Speaking of which, I also spent a day with Din just a few days ago XD long timeeeeeeeee!! Bought lots of things. Not me, her. Stupidly, we kept reminding each other to take a picture and I even brought my camera along with me, but guess what? We forgot! -_____- So yeah.. No pictures for that day! :( Sad! Well, there are some pictures.. Of manikins and brands, that is.

Last words:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWEK BEST FRIEND!!!
Hope your wishes come true. Of course, you'll be understood one day. :)


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Golly, I am lazy to go to school. Seriously, although we supposedly have lessons. I mean, our exams are just over and yet we still have lessons to prepare ourselves for the war next year. How bothersome! Soldiers need rest after a battle!

Well, complaining is not gonna do any good anyway. Plus, it ain't as if my results were amazing. Oh well, Monij has been away with Kenji all the way in Malaysia. Was alone again the past few days.

Pretty much alright, except for the fact that some unexpected things happened. Not to me, but to one of the close people to me. It was something intolerable, over-rated, over-blown. I am not a sexist or a girly girl.

In fact, I have been around boys my entire life. I have been a down-right tomboy with no affection towards guys in the ways girls normally do. There was never a time when I thought of getting away from guys because I'm oh-so-afraid of the opposite gender or wish to be together with any, cause I have been like a guy myself.

Point is, although I have been a tomboy, I do realise that I am a girl and that nothing will ever be changed, nor do I want to change it. I realise that some of the things that guys are deeply in love with are just so over-rated for me. I also realise that I can never understand the way some males think. The way they do the things they do, the way they want things. They are just unreasonable.

All and all, females will always be hurt at the end of the day. Why must it be so? Well, sometimes, I do feel that I should have the ability to change my gender in order to save the women clan. Seriously, I feel hopeless sometimes. Hopeless that I am unable to do anything, no matter how much I want. No matter how much I wish I could.

Actually, changing my gender may not be much of a help too. It may make me feel even worse, too. I just wish that I have the power to do something. Do something for one so dear to me. For anyone I place close to my heart.

Of course, if you truly mean it, things don't have to be shown obviously in actions. Your thoughts and feelings should be able to penetrate your bones and skins and the physical distance. That is what I am trying to do right now. Trying to with my very best. I do not know if anyone will ever understand this. It was something really unacceptable.

I am happy with my life right now because although not many people undestand me, at least some are able to understand some parts. And thus, although divided by many, bits and pieces of me are sewed together when these people come together.

The same thing goes to this friend of mine, I pressume. Although I may not be 100% correct, but being with her for a long time, I am positive that it is at least 95% true. Alas, a piece of her is gone. Gone with the passing time, unrewindable.

It was a piece placed onto me, only much later. When everything was too late. First thing that came to my mind was to scold her. But again, nothing's gonna change and it'll only make things worse. I want things to get better. At least for the feelings to be better. I hope it will be healed.

I never imagined that such a day will ever come. I always knew that she was strong, that she would never make any wrong decisions. Although, of course, she had, she will definitely correct her mistakes, you know.

In this case, things aren't so simple no more. As much as it seems simple, deep in her she is not the same. There's a cut. No matter how thin and tiny. No matter how fine and barely visible it may be. It hurts me to see.

Anyway, I'm so lazy!!! Sigh, hope tomorrow will be a fine day! And ALL THE BEST TO ALL O LEVEL STUDENTS!! Tomorrow is the start of their battle! :) I'm nervous for them! ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYONE!!!!!!!!!
Do get a boyfriend soon :P But NEVER forget me! XP I'll kill you IF you EVER do!

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I would want to live longer...